Messages I Never Sent

Almost

You were upset when I started seeing somebody else

So much so you wouldn't speak to me for weeks

When you finally did message me back

I already had what I needed to move on

You see

In that time

I learned everything

I learned how you kissed another girl

On the same bed

You first told me you loved me

I learned how you jumped up

And told her that no

You couldn't do this

Because you were still thinking of me

I learned how you couldn't have feelings for her

Because you still had those same feelings for me

It was almost enough to tug at my heart strings

Almost

But not quite

Because after you kissed her

Your first words weren't about her

They were about me

A plea that I wouldn't find out

For fear of losing a second chance

But what you didn't count on

Was that I had also learned my worth

I had learned not to put up with anything less than what I deserve

Because in the end

Who will truly love me

If I cannot even

Love

Myself?