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this song reminds me of this story like w o a h ^^^^

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It's past 11, and it started raining. Great isn't it? Since, I have no car, no motorbike, and I didn't tell Ashley that she could pick me up, I have to go on foot. You see, it could get worse but I hope it won't.  I should leave a note on the counter before I go to make sure everyone knows I'm out.

"If I'm not home by the morning

 I'm probably drunk and dying in ash's bed."

- Maddie

I put on my coat and grab an umbrella that my smaller sisters broke years ago at a playground. We had fun back then. The door opens and I step outside and just... go for it.

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The music gets louder and louder as I get closer to the address, teenagers screaming, having a good time. And noisy. Great. I approach the door when-

ACK- what the FUCK I find myself on the floor because of Ashley's jump-hugs. This woman is full of surprises and she already smells like weed. Even better. 

"MADDIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE" she screeches and of course, people immediately draw their attention on us. "Wheres Jacob?" 

"He's inside with some dude, probably trying to get a boyfriend" she winks. Whew. "Well, ok then, but uhm... Is Conan here?" I question. 

"Yeeeah, surprisingly Jacqueline is not with him this time so it's your time to catch up with him maybe?"

"I might, I might not. You know how I act around him"

"Just do it, not hard. I mean you're not me."

"Let's just go get some drinks, please Ash," I beg her because people are still looking at us

In the end, we just got a bottle of wine and went outside because the stars are beautiful, the fewer people mean more fun for me. All of a sudden Conan just appears and I spit out my wine. For fuck's sake- I always embarrass myself anywhere I go and I hate myself for that. 

"Conan-" I choke on the wine and Ash is patting my back "I know, I know, take your time it's going to be okay" 

"Is there something wrong?" the redhead comes up to us "Are you okay? Do you need some help?" 

"EEK- I uhm- no, I'm fine .. haha.. haaaa-" god fucking damn it. I always fangirl around him as a girl would fangirl over Brendon Urie's voice. I mean, who wouldn't?  Brendon Urie is a literal god.

"You don't seem that fine if I say so myself Felicia" he smiles kindly and oh my LORD

"I mean- you're right I almost choked on this fucken' wine" I awkwardly laugh and take a sip of it slowly.

"I remember when you broke a wine bottle in my parent's house back in fifth grade and we blamed it on the dog" he laughed. Yes, we were close friends back then, VERY close friends. Maybe that's why I fell in love with him. High school came and we separated somehow. I still don't understand to this day how that happened. I guess after mom died I became less fun to hang out with. 

"Yeah, and then we laughed so loudly at 11 pm your mom came to your room and told us to shut up but we didn't. We were stupid children" I laugh too and I notice Ashley is gone. That cheeky bastard. 

"Let's bond again Fel, we didn't talk in a while and I see you changed" he puts his hand out and of course I take it and we walk to the small pond away from people but our hands disconnect. Shit.

"How are your sisters?" he gently asks as we stop and sit down on an old bench. 

"Fine- I mean they are troublesome as always. Fru and Betty are always arguing. Cataline is always in her room drawing and Nikolett just does everything really." 

"so just the usual?"

"Yeah, what about you? Is your sister fine?" I open a pack of cigarettes and pull one out

"She has been in the hospital several times but she seems better since the treatment" he frowns

"Oh.. well then she is going to be okay I'm sure!" I say as I light a cigarette and put it between my chapped red lips

"Since when do you smoke??" Says the boy with a surprised and worried voice.

"Since Mom" I look down trying to hold my tears but I fail
I taste the salt and I wipe my face with my already wet arm as my tears got on it too.

"Oh-- shit-- I am so sorry Fel- oh my God I am so stupid--" I stop him "It's okay, you just asked a question and I should already forget about her, I didn't visit her grave for so long" I puff on the toxic and unhealthy thing. "Felicia, you know I like you right? You are so perfect and-" a phone message interrupts.
The school group message says
BRUUUH JACQUELINE IS MAKING OUT WITH TYLER YOU SHOULD LOOK AT THIS
I knew she would cheat. Hah. Dirty whore always claps with somebody behind your back. Wait-
I look at the semi-broken boy sitting next to me staring at his phone screen.

"Conan-" he hugs me all of the sudden and he is hurrying his face into my shoulder. We used to do this back then too. Everytime his dad hurt him he always came to me crying when he needed a hug. Times changed now I am the awkward one, I was so confident before.
What happened? High school changed both of us yet we still find ourselves hugging each other tightly on a bench at 1 in the morning.

Ashley is probably having fun with Jacob, dancing, getting drunk.
And I am here with the love of my life. Almost love of my life, if he had feelings for me but he doesn't. It hurts but I have to accept it.
He really loves Jacqueline. She wasn't like a jerk before too. We used to be friends.

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A/N THIS was so bad ew




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