Dear ms. Anton
Maybe the reason I stopped talking was because I dont want to admit that I'm not okay
Depression is a women I can not please one day she'll go away at least I tell my self it'll be that way
Because if I dont talk about it it isn't there
See no evil, can I peak?
Dear ms. Anton
I bought a purple fish last night
While I cried but really I'm fine because I'm getting better or at least I'm telling myself I am and maybe telling my self enough will make it true
I bought a purple fish today
Because I have a list of things that fuck me up
Gender dysphoria which makes your skin crawl and your chest tighten with fear that everyone knows as I walk home and death by suicide of my father and the attempts of my own death as I held that wire across my throat
Or the anxiety
Where my face strikes with fear of thee as the cold sweat beats down your face and you feel you heart quicken.
And maybe the OCD where you cant just go over because they dont understand you just cant you cant.
Or the days I cant breath where I have a elephant on my chest and a rhino on my throat
Or the days where my skin burns like a fiery ice and each breath is a battle
Maybe one days she'll go away far away, depression is in dismay maybe on day she'll go away
Maybe it'll all be okay one day
I'll tell my self they went away
Dear ms. Anton I cant talk today I dont want to believe
Maybe one day she'll go away
Dear ms. Anton I can't deal with it today I'm fine
Dont you See??? Do you????
I bought a purple fish today
His eyes where grey
I cant talk today because I dont want to believe today
Maybe one day she'll go away
Just want to be normal today
I bought a purple fish today
Dear ms. Anton
