I'm always surrounded by so many lovely people or negative that I can't even count. People can't understand why I like being alone, I don't like too many people. For 5 years of my life I have been alone and since I've met so many people I'm not used to it i get so uncomfortable. People mostly say: If your a loner why are you so loud? I'm just really energetic I have a mental health issue, and no I don't have depression anymore. I just like being alone. It's where I'm comfortable, when I'm happy and around people I'm happy and j can't think straight. I find comfort in being sad.
For the past two days my thoughts of suicide have gone up, I might try to overdose on Monday or Tuesday :/ maybe then I could finally be left alone. I just don't want to cause damage to other people because I know they care I just have dark fantasies of how my funeral would look like maybe I could just go back to starving myself? No, my parents easily notice when Somthing is wrong. I just want them to leave me alone too
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Brain
HorrorJust writing about the weird way I think tbh since I have nothing else good to write about I'd just figure that I would stick to this instead
