Skin I'm In

Skin

This skin I'm in they say I'm blessed to have , that it's the true color of my ancestors past they say I am the color of a black warrior , a black queen perhaps .. - Mafiamonie

" Honna .. Honnaaaa Honnaah "  !!
Mhcht "yes yes I'm up ".. I snapped at my best friend jade standing out side my room window  , Ughh I just can't understand why you never use the front door jade .

"Child please why use a front doe when you have a perfectly fine window right here " .. I laughed while listening to her southern accent I adored so much , what time is it anyways I said while wiping my foggy unfocused eyes .

" ummmm it's 5:36 so you need to get your black ass in the shower and quit staring into space , and I hope you actually get dressed today because sweats aren't gonna fly widd me" .. "ugh another day at this  jail house people continue to call a school" I mumbled to myself while turning the shower on .

As I push my box braids behind my back and continue to wash my charcoal dark skin I began to think about all the slandering words I heard as a kid , my mom always told me my skin was beautiful and how my beauty ran skin deep .. " Honnah its 6:15 we don't have all day , you love taking your precious time every single day we go through this ".

" yea here I come just a minute " I yelled once I snapped back to reality while turning the shower off . I stepped off onto the cold tile floor and wrapped my towel around me while
grabbing my lotion, spray and deodorant I exited out of my bathroom .

gathering my clothes from my closet i finally see my yellow BANDS sweatsuit I had ordered and I put it on with these honey yellow air max 96s to match that I had gotten in the mail last summer . Turning to face my mirror on my closet door admiring my still neat 2week old braids "I think I might just throw them In a bun .. " 

looking at my hair for about a minute or 2 I decided on just leaving my hair down . I put some Carmex on my lips and turned around to pick up all of my clothes I had just so happened to have scattered all over the place .

"Ughh Like what has this become an everyday thing " I say while putting my clothes back in my closet " alright I'm Valid let's bounce Jade .. and no we aren't going out my window "

" See you guys later love you mom , love you pops  I locked the bottom lock  " .. " Yo Big H you really need to get yourself a car it's the beginning of 12th grade year and we are walking Honna , walking I cannot deal" .. "Jade if your tired of walking why don't you just get your own car huh ? Yea practice what you preach sis " I said while sitting down at the stale smelling bus stop .

The bus seems to be taking awhile so I pull out my phone to check my grades and yet here I am failing history with a D

"Honna Amir Pierson how are u failing a class " I asked myself , failing already yet I've done every assignment Mr.Waltz has given since the beginning of the school year it has to be some type of misunderstanding

"Honna the bus is here get up" I walked onto the bus and dropped my fair in while taking a seat next to jade sitting my back pack right beside me , I looked to the right of the bus and I seen 3 guys and a girl I caught a good glimpse at one of the boys admiring how curly his hair was . Then I heard the girl beside the guys yell out "what are you looking at you nigger".

In all my 17 years of life never have I ever disrespected anyone in that way I despise racial slurs , I couldn't get it wrapped around my head that someone had disrespected me like that the words pierced my ears like sharp needles , like she had spit venom into my veins .

I was extremely livid a whole army couldn't hold me back from what I was going to do to her , I felt stinging in my eyes , tears started to flow down my face slowly but surely a urge rushed over my body . And the next thing I knew I found myself on top of her choking away every bit of breath she had to offer , till her face turned black and blue .