Crystal Snow

4

LS

School club is one of most thing I hated and I'll do evrything to avoid it. I didn't know that it was mandatory to this school but If I knew I wouldn't enrolled here. First day was to find a club you wanted and here I am looking for nothing. I really don't want to join on clubs it is a waste of time but do I have a choice? Can I transfer to another school? Nah! It is also a waste of time and energy.

Do you know the feeling of being stared? Every move you do is being followed? Yes, students were gazing at me and i kinda find it rude. I'm not dumb to not notice them. I have this so called peripheral view and they are so obvious. Like what? Shoving to your face 'hey I'm looking at you'  I felt uncomfortable but I  remain unbothered. I don't know what their damn reasons for staring at me. I'll continue what I must do.

There is one club that I wanted and it's related to my study. The photography club, I look for it and there's a long queue of girls signing up. I stared at it thinking deeply if I will sign up too. wholeheartedly decided, I lined myself to the last girl in the queue. I looked back and there a long queue of guys gradually lining up. They aren't here awhile I go, I thought so. I didn't bother to look back again, on my sides and surroundings. When its my turn, the junior recruiter gave me a big smile but I just stared at him blankly. He gave me the membership form. "Thank you for signing up" the junior guy said.
"I haven't filled my informations" I sassily replied. Subtlety telling him that I might change my mind. The other juniors laughed. He open his mouth like a fish about to say something but I left him unattended. I don't have the whole hours to entertain him.

Ending, I signed up to photography club halfly force and halfly willingly.

I walked on the building where my homeroom is. I wandered around and I might say this school isn't bad at all. I like the ambiance. The school is huge that you can find some place to have a rest, a safe comfort zone. Some students are lurking around. The floor is cleared I was alone. I stood in front of my homeroom and leaned in the veranda. My mind wandered again. This is it. My new beginning. Away from my family, a broken family. Will I find peace here? I've been lost in my thoughts that I didn't realize someone was staring at me from afar. The same brown doe eyes I saw in the bar and in the elevator. He frowned at me and me too. Does he remembers me? He was on the same floor as me but on opposite side. He stood straightly and started walking calmly with his hands on his pocket. I followed his movement then I realize that he is walking to where I stood. He stopped and there we stood face to face. His eyes is like my eyes, no emotion. I see sadness in his eyes like mine whenever I saw my face in the mirror. We are like a mirror each other.

"It's you, again" he uttered. I frowned. "At the bar, in the elevator and now at this school"

"You remembered me" I said. I don't know why I did said that like we knew each other then separate ways then saw each other again.

"Your eyes, I remember you thru your eyes"

"You sounds like is the best way to remember someone" I sarcastically said and he chuckled. Even his laugh sounds forceful and lonely.

"Maybe, coz I really never remember someone even I met them twice, thrice but there is something within you" he said like its a normal thing. I frowned and kind of feel nervous. Why would I?

"Maybe because I have this big eyes" I forcefully joke. Suddenly a sounds of phone rang. We both get our phones.

"Oh?" He asked over the phone. I put down my phone, kind of feeling down, right who's gonna call me when infact I was alone here. Nobody knows me. And I never expect someone will call me. Am I expecting my parents? I don't think they'll call me. They're busy with their own lives. They didn't even ask me if I already arrived here in South Korea but I thought that I have the responsibility to tell them so I decided to let them know that I was already here. I messaged them the day after I arrived here.

I walked passed by him I don't think I should say goodbye to him. We don't know each other, we aren't friends, we are completely strangers to each other. "Wait!" I heard him say. Before I turn around he is now standing in front of me. "What its your name?" He asked. I contemplated whether to tell him my name and why is he asking?

"I don't think we will see each other again. You don't have to know me"

"We don't even know each other but we always run with each other in case you didn't notice. This is the third time" why he is so persistent?

"And this will be the last time. Please excuse me" I didn't wait for him to answer and I made my way to exit. He seems a good guy but I can't trust anyone here. Trust, the hardest thing to give to someone. Since my parents divorced I never trust anyone. I only have myself and I guess I will be alone forever.