Poetry (if i know you in real life, dont read)

lying

I've been lying to myself for quite some time

It's hard to even realize why

My heart is shaking and my limbs are cold

I tried to push myself to act old

Now I'm regretting mistakes that I've made

Since I was to young to start at this age

I'm going to go back to who I think I was

And maybe I can finally get over this buzz

The words haunt me

But the letters are sharp

I want to go home

But never in the dark