Uneasiness (Izuocha)

Chapter 4

Deku's POV

When it comes to overthinking, I'm an expert at that. Overthinking is almost like an art, in a way. And I've become a master at it. Every time I overthink, I tend to speak out loud, but I'm mumbling. 

Now my situation actually requires it. Why the- I never use this word, might as well use it for my current situation- fuck did I do that? It was so stupid, I knew the consequence. 

Why...? I better not mention it the next time I see her. If she mentions it, I'll quickly brush over it. Why am I so bad with girls? Why can't I socialize well? Middle school was hell for me. Why is it now that talking matters? 

Better ignore it for now. It's finally the weekend. I think I'm going to hide out in my room for now. Hopefully no one knocks on my door. 

*door knocks*

What great timing. Who could it be? 

"Who is it?"

I hear a girl's voice outside. I open the door and it's Uraraka. I look at her for a good second and then turn around. 

"Um, what do you want Uraraka?"

"I figured that you weren't going to do anything today. I was gonna ask you to go to store with me and Iida." 

Iida's going, I'm getting saved. But some part of me wants to be alone with her. What is this one thing I'm feeling? She really motivates me. I've never had anyone motivate me that much. She hasn't been in my life for very long but she means so much to me. Can someone tell me this? I've never had someone make me feel this way before.

"Um D-deku? You okay? Are you going to go too?"

Woops. Was I muttering again? 

"Yeah, I'll go. When are we leaving?" 

This is weird. I'm never alone with girls, oh god.

"We're leaving in about an hour. I haven't told Iida yet, better go tell him, haha." 

She turns around and walks towards the elevator. I don't want her to leave. But we can't be seen alone. Why is there so many mixed emotions? Might as well take to the internet for help.

Uraraka's POV

That's kind of odd. Deku was perfectly calm earlier. Maybe he just kind of overreacted. Anyway...I think my plan is coming into play. The thing is, it's not my plan. Mina went into my room last night while I was asleep. I'm pretty sure she was suspicious over what happened yesterday. To think she found a note that I wrote to clear my head about it yesterday. During breakfast this morning, she slipped me a note. I read it and told I wouldn't try it.

Well after a good half an hour of blushing and denying, she managed to get me to do it. I have to go tell Iida, but then Mina will interrupt and say some kind of excuse. This could either go well or backfire. But I don't want Mina to follow us because that could be a problem. 

Maybe I'll finally tell him that I like him. Oh my gosh, this is something you see in every cheesy teenage drama. I can't tell him in the grocery store, that's so stupid.

Where is a good place to go? There is a park with cherry blossom trees nearby, but it's December so that's out of season. It's too cold to go out to the sea. There's a flower shop near the store. Maybe we could stop there. Nice scenery. But's too generic. I don't want to tell him in the dorms because he could hide very easily. Why is it so tough to tell him?

I'm blushing again...oh no. I'm not even dressed nicely. Maybe I'll go try on some outfits I have. WHY AM I BEING SUCH A GIRLY GIRL FOR THIS? I've had no problem dating before in middle school. Now this is high school, why am I so nervous? I've always been nervous with my crushes, but Deku literally has me floating off. Middle school dating wasn't very much, it was kind of experimental. 

Ugh. I don't want to think about that. Those weren't my best years. Now I should probably wear some earmuffs and coat. Tying my hair would make me look bette- I have to stop with this. 

Calm down, he's just a good friend that you want to date...

I wonder if he's ever had a girlfriend before. If he hasn't that could maybe explain why he gets so nervous from all the girls in our class. If I'm his first-

I have to stop thinking of these good possibilities. If I get rejected, I'll get hurt a lot more seriously than I should. 

Oh my god. It's already been an hour. I better get ready. 

finally a chapter lmao. Sorry for the wait.