Just me
"Helena, you need to take this shit!"
I sighed like a hundred times now. Hindi ko alam kung bakit pinipilit niya akong tanggapin ang isang project na ayaw ko!
"Look Marcus, I'm a model. Hindi ako actress! I don't do acting, the only thing I'm good at is projecting! Naiintindihan mo ba ako?"
Marcus is my manager. Oo, lalaki ang pangalan niya but he's currently a bisexual. Sayang nga lang at mukhang regalo ni Lord si Marcus sa mga babae. Unfortunately, lakaki din ang hanap niya. He told me that he'd never been attracted to girls but maybe, someday he will.
"You need this Helena, let's face it or not. Kung hindi ka lang kapatid ni Ymigo ay paniguradong onti lang ang maimo-model mong damit"
"Wow. Hard burn Marcus"
"I'm sorry to break it into you but that's the truth. But, if you'll take this project i'm sure it will be the start of your real career"
I was about to speak when i heard the doorbell rang
"I need to hang up now. Nandito na si Isaiah"
"Some monkey business eh?"
"Oh please, Spare me your lewd mind Marcus. Bye"
Pagkatapos kong ibaba ang tawag ay humarap lang ako saglit sa harap ng salamin upang tignan ang sarili ko. Naglakad ako papunta sa pintuan at ng buksan ko iyon ay isang lalaki ang sumalubong sa akin.
The only thing is that it wasn't Isaiah.
"Josh? Anong ginagawa mo dito?"
He looked devastated. Magulo ang buhok, namumungay ang mata, hindi naka-ayos ang necktie. He's a total mess.
Ngumiti ito. Inangat niya ang dala niyang paperbag, "Ice cream and Walnuts"
Napaawang ang bibig ko. I don't know how to react. Somehow, i felt a pain in my heart when i saw how devastated he is. Hindi ko naman ginusto na maging ganito siya.
"Josh, I..."
"Helena, give me a chance please? Just one more chance"
Inabot niya ang kamay ko at hinawakan ito. I don't know what to say. I don't know how to answer his question.
"Look Josh, i know that i was a little rude last time but now? Lasing ka eh. You should probably go home"
"No," He looked determined "Answer me first Helena. Will you give me a second chance? Please, just give me one more chance and i can prove to you that i really love you. I can't live without you Helena... please"
I bite my lower lip, "Josh, i can't. I just... fell out of love. Sinabi ko sayo agad kasi ayoko na. Nakipag-break ako sayo kasi hindi ko na kaya. It's hard to pretend that i love you when the truth is i don't. Trust me Josh, you don't need a pretentious love that i did. So please, don't beg anymore. I know you deserve a love that is more than what i gave to you"
Natahimik siya dahil sa sinabi ko. Unti-unting lumuwag ang hawak niya sa kamay ko. I don't know what to do. Alam kong nasaktan ko siya but it will be more painful if we'll continue. If I'll continue.
"I'm sorry Josh"
Tahimik siyang umiling. I watched him as he slowly walk away from me and from my life. Natigilan ako ng makitang nakasalubong pa niya si Isaiah na papunta sa Condo ko. Josh was too preoccupied to notice it.
I was watching Josh as he enter the elevator. Nang makasiguradong naka-alis na ito ay tsaka ko lang ibinaling ang tingin ko kay Isaiah na kanina pa pala nakatitig sa akin.
