505 ˻grayson dolan˼ ✔︎

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it was a typical day in grayson's eyes.
he spent his day going to his classes, back to back.
always on time, great punctuality he had.

he was a perfectionist.

that's what he adored in angelica, her perfectionism.
he always saw the best in her, he didn't see one single flaw.
luckily for him, she didn't see one single flaw in him.

but they did see many flaws within themselves.

grayson immediately saw her as she was walking to theater and
he was walking towards his music theory class.
he always felt his heart begin to beat faster as the pair walked next and past each other.

they always shared a simple and small smile, to her it meant nothing but and act of kindness.
to him it meant more than the whole world.

her smile was brighter than the sun and always lifted his spirits up whenever he was having a bad day, she just didn't know the effect she had on him.

neither did he know the effect he had on her. she always fantasized many things about the strange and mysterious man. she wanted more than anything in the world to sneak a peek into his crazy and twisted, demented mind. she heard all the rumors about him and how he could never love a single soul besides himself. she wanted to ignore them all and go for it but the voices in her head always seemed to know better.

once again they walked past each other without a single word spoke, just a smile.

505

back at graysons dormitory he had his ways of coping. many ways toxic and others not. he always seemed to drink, smoke, fuck or write music. anything to take his mind of angelica, most of the time she was still on his mind during on of his festives.

he didn't know what it was about her, what made her different and unique from the others? was it that her energy was just radiating deeply into his soul? was it that she stood out from every other trashy plastic girl at their school? or was it that she was all to herself just like himself? did he see himself in her?

or was it that she reminded him of his mother? the lovely lady who deserved better than anyone else he could ever know. the women who's been through many tragedies but still manages to fight her way through and get shit done. was that the reason?

he adored the beautiful brunette with his whole heart even if he didn't have one, he still felt an emotion towards her that he couldn't quite explain but knew if he tried that she would instantly be able to tell him what he's feeling.

emotions were meaningless to him, he could care less about what he felt. around her, he had to care.

"stop" grayson speaks pushing the blonde off of his crotch area as she was in the middle of performing oral sex. she immediately stopped and looked at grayson with a confused face "i can do better sorry-" she began to speak until grayson said "i'm not in the mood adara, just leave. my dick would have been limp the whole time & its not even your fault." she nods her head understanding and places her clothing back on and quickly scuries out his dormitory.

grayson opened his laptop and pulled up his search history in his private browser, revealing the beach pictures of angelica. her cures and perfectly tan skin always aroused him. he began to slowly pump himself as he let out small whimpers, looking at the pictures of her.

pre-cum oozed out his tip to which he ran his thumb over the reddened and hard tip. "fuck angelica" he moaned at the thought of her possibly doing these actions to him one day but he knew that chance was a one in a million chance.

he pumped faster and faster as his high finally came once he came all over his hand and some landing on the bed in front of him. he quickly cleaned himself up and cleared his search history once again, leaving no trace behind.

505

angelica was an innocent young women and the very thought of sex itself scared her. she never had good luck with boys or girls or anyone growing up giving that she came out as pansexual when she was only just in the 6th grade. it was a struggle for her since not many people accepted her as she was & people would say "pansexuality isn't real and you're just bisexual" but they're two different things. she learned to live with it and ignore it as much as she can.

now she's older and has meet & surrounded herself with people that accept her for who she is, even grayson knows about her sexuality and he accepts her for her. she doesn't know that though. she believes that's if she gets close that he will find out and end up leaving her but that's the opposite of what would happen. he loves the fact that she's so open and doesn't necessarily give a damn about what others could say, thats whats he sees at least.

she's the opposite though, she cares to deeply about what people say and is always reaching for everyone's approval. it sucks because it's what's going to get her hurt in the end. she cant control it and it's something that's going to get her hurt in every way possible.

physically,mentally,emotionally
& spiritually.

there's no saving or helping her, she just has to fall on her own and learn from her own mistakes. it's up to grayson to hurt herd in the least way possible, that's why there's so much distance because he know if he gets close then there's no going back.

there's no saving either one of them.

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