Chapter 4 || Worry

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The morning was unusually quiet. It seemed normal when I was walking to school but I reacted differently when I arrived by the gates.

Yuuto was not around.

He kept on messaging me during the weekends. I didn't have the right feeling so I ignored his ceaseless text messages. Eventually, he stopped the day before another school day will come. It made me worry but I was reminded once again that I was at fault as well. I thought he was doing his own works so he didn't have the time to message me when I don't even bother messaging back.

I began to feel a weird feeling inside my stomach as I kept on walking to the school, on my way to my locker. That weird feeling isn't as foreign as most people would think.

I started to regret I screamed at Yuuto last week.

I wanted to avoid problems like these but it was inevitable with my overthinking persona. Thoughts began to overthrow my peaceful mind once again.

'He must have hated me after I embarrassed him in front of a lot of students.'

'Maybe he did not want to deal with my childish antics anymore.'

'Maybe something bad happened to him because I was under his care;
commander might have punished him.'

I took out my phone to check on the time when a message suddenly popped up.

From: Yuuto-nii
Subject: -
Stop overthinking, I'm not mad nor am I in any sort of trouble.

'Th-that's reassuring...' I thought with a sigh.

"Kimiko?" the tap on the shoulder and the call for my name startled me, the impractical thoughts vanishing instantly. I turned my body to faced him.

"Jirou-senpai?" I was befuddled that he actually call me in the first place. I took one quick glance over to my surroundings and began to notice the difference.

"O-oh, I went beyond the first year's area, I'm sorry," I bowed before I turned to the direction back to the section I was supposed to go. If I could take away a habit of mine, it would be my habit of overthinking that eventually lead me to carelessness.

"Do you want me to accompany you?" his offer made me stopped in between my tracks.

"Aren't you busy or something?" I asked, unsure of what I have just heard coming from him. I was not close to Jirou yet his friendship with Yuuto was kind of an impact on me, that's why I was more comfortable with him around me than my other teammates aside from Koujirou. I don'y usually interact with him if I'm not with Yuuto, so it was a surprise that he would engage in anything that had to do with me alone.

"Nah, I don't have any exams anyway," he shrugged his shoulders.

"Okay then, I guess it's not a problem," I said, showing a smile to him. Our walk was quiet until he spoke again.

"Kidou told me to accompany you," he started.

"So that's why you asked me if I wanted some company?" he nodded while sorting a few of the papers he was holding.

"U-um...Jirou-senpai?" he hummed, turning his eyes to me.

"The school wasn't destroyed, right?" this question caused Jirou to burst into a fit of laugh. I was bewildered to see him laughing like this. It didn't felt like there was anything bad, he was actually...laughing in amusement.

"Of course not, as per order by commander and Kidou," my initial reaction was to give a sarcastic remark to try and cover my embarrassment but I bit back my tongue to avoid the possibility. I hummed and nodded in acknowledgement to this new information.

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