WinWin X Reader || Suicidal...

To

I made my decision...
I want to stay in this world with my love and I'll try my hardest to get rid of my depression but it won't be easy.
I smiled to myself knowing that I could give myself confidence and that I could get myself to succeed in getting over my depression. I can do this. Y/n you can do this.

To Y/n,
Your a strong women with the mind of uniqueness. Your yourself. never change yourself because of what someone says about you. You are loved. You are cared for. I promise. I care because I experienced this situation and all humans should be treated with respect. I wanna help you recover and make your mental state better. We all love you. NCTzen's NCT love you and they care for you so much because you support them so they will support you along the way too. Your never ever an outcast. Your not a joke. You are human. We all bleed,cry,sob,curse,yell,scream,hit each other but that won't stop us from coming together as one. Please keep your positivity with you and breath. Take deep breaths.
Inhale
Exhale
Love yourself . I promise you can do it. Never give up. Your not a coward , a slut, stupid, your special and kind hearted❤️

Your P.O.V

I smiled to myself knowing that I'm gonna do this for my love. I'm gonna succeed so that I can be with my love and our child. I got up and got dressed. I put on bright colors. I put on a yellow shirt with black pants. I let some of my scars show so that people know that I'm going to be a survivor of depression. I smiled and put my hair down and made it look curly. I had the time before Sicheng woke up so I died the tips of my hair to blue. Maybe he'll like it I don't know for sure but we're going to find out when he see's me. I went downstairs and started to make breakfast for the both of us. I made eggs with bacon, sausage and pancakes with orange juice on the side. After I was finished I heard footsteps come downstairs. It was Sicheng but he came to me and gave me a good morning kiss which I excitedly responded to and I smiled during the kiss. It was so passionate and meaningful and I loved it so much.
"Someone is excited?" He broke the kiss and smiled at me. I smiled and hugged him. "I decided that I'm...going to try to ease my mental state" Sicheng's Eyes widened at me. "Really!?" I nodded and hugged him. "So you'll try not to be sad all the time and will be with me forever?!" He said surprised and excited. I nodded at him and kissed his cheek. He hugged me so tightly. "Thank you so much Y/n...you mean everything to me and I love you so much thank you..." he said with teary eyes. I smiled at him and said. " anything for you oppa" . We both started to eat then Sicheng realized my hair was dyed. His eyes widened and got surprised by the color. "Wow babe you dyed your hair?" I smiled and nodded. "D-Do you like it?" I asked him not sure of what his opinion was on my hair. "I don't like it babe" he told me. "What?" I said trying to gist up what he said. "I don't like it. I love it babe and your even more beautiful than before" I blushed at the comment.
Ugh lord how can I resist this man?
We finished eating and we went out for a walk around the park. We were laughing and acting crazy which made people look at us weirdly. I couldn't help but smile because this man, my love right next to me is making me happier and happier by the second and it's making me forget what depression is.
We took pictures and videos so that we'll remember them in the future.
Memories
Is all I want my future to be. I don't care if they are sad or happy memories. I just want to live in this world knowing that I had a purpose to. I'm no longer alone because I have my best friend beside me.
My lover
I'll never ever forget his face in the future or even the after life because that face...is the reason why I'm still here today. That face made me happy. That face I love with all of my life. That face I'm never going to leave ever. That face is my soulmate. That face helped me through my hardest and...that face is the only thing I have left in this world.
I never wanna let him go...
But one day which is the day I'm never hoping for is the day I have to let go...
A/n:which is never
Y/n:ok good lmao

Omo I hope you enjoyed this chapter and I want you all to stay strong and I promise I'm here for you all.❤️💕✨