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after his meeting I thought that my mind would stop there without consecutive repetitions during the day, that my obsession with blake would end. but it wasn't like that. from that damn day he started attending my school and my life stopped there. i always saw him, maybe i was also looking for him, and my friends realized how much i was staring at that guy during lunch so undaunted they started asking me questions about him and why i was interested in him, and so i was forced to tell everything. their "splendid" advice was to make me notice, to go and talk about it but I was too naive to do so so I let it run pretending that it was only a moment and I was no longer thinking about it. it was May 28 when a chemistry class enters my class as a new student and the only free place was next to my ... (I wanted to die). he approached with an air of boyish _son of dad_ but on his, he always dressed in black but distinguished him by his immense and fascinating scent of bleu de chanel.sits down and laughing I'm "pleased Blake, but I think you already know my name" I surprised answered "hello pleasure, I'm called me jessica, I think you do not know my name" smiled and turned around like when someone hides a secret ...I met him the next day and the day after, but we weren't talking to each other, he was only worth looking at me in tilt. since his presence in the classroom my concentration had decreased and my family, my teachers had taken note of my new behavior and not to disappoint anyone, of my love affair, I decided to move him away permanently from both me and my mind. I let the time pass alone, to close the wound that I had caused myself but nothing; The love for him did nothing but enlarge forming a chasm in my heart that only he would fill.sits down and laughing I'm "pleased Blake, but I think you already know my name" I surprised answered "hello pleasure, I'm called me jessica, I think you do not know my name" smiled and turned around like when someone hides a secret ...

I met him the next day and the day after, but we weren't talking to each other, he was only worth looking at me in tilt. since his presence in the classroom my concentration had decreased and my family, my teachers had taken note of my new behavior and not to disappoint anyone, of my love affair, I decided to move him away permanently from both me and my mind. I let the time pass alone, to close the wound that I had caused myself but nothing; The love for him did nothing but enlarge forming a chasm in my heart that only he would fill.I decided to change myself, my character, my wardrobe to become the kind of girl I would have dreamed of being, sure of everything and without fear. It took me 3 months, the right months of the summer holidays to get out of high school as a child and return to it as a woman. I changed hair color, way of dressing, mobile phone and everyone began to notice me talking to me about my presence without the shadow of my friends. I returned sure of myself and with the courage to declare myself to Blake that I had not stopped thinking despite the summer. my first day of school had begun beautifully and I was happy enough to be able to pass it in a serene way but entered the classroom his place was empty and it was so all the other days for more than a week. I did not give up and waited, I waited so long that during the return from school home I met him with another girl, I was petrified and the chasm of my heart became an endless ravine;