All my life, I've been thinking that I'm always being left alone.
That everyone around me especially those who I cherishes the most is bound to leave me.
And those... left me with just sadness.
But not all leaves a scar. Some leaves a memory.
But why am I focusing on the sad part?
Why can't I just remember the good memories that they left.
Why am I blaming myself for their departure?
Why can't I be just happy?
"Eyy? You're crying again?"
I shook my head as I finally placed the flowers on top of my beloved friend or brother's grave.
"It's not your fault, Yoonji-yah. How many times do I have to repeat myself?"
"Do you think he's alright up there?"
"And how many times do I have to say what he wants to say to you.. That-"
"Stop torturing yourself. It's all an accident. So be happy. I'm alright here.Yeah I've memorized it already."
"Aish, this girl.. That's why I love you..."He sat beside me.
I leaned my head on his shoulders. He kissed my forehead.
" I love you too Sungwoon-ah... "
And not all who leaves will never come back.
Just like clouds.
Sometimes it feels like they are moving away then the sky is empty again but as times passes by, before you knew it.. It's there again ready to burst out, then it would be a fog-like thing, then it would be in its thinnest form urging to cry again, then it would be there as clear as a cotton candy surrounding the bright sunlight.
Well that's life, it's a cycle but with patience and persistence... You will never be get tired of it.
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【After getting discharged at the hospital】
As I'm writing something on my notebook, there's a loud thud that echoed outside the living room.
I went outside my room and checked what it is.
And I found nothing.
I went outside my house and... There I saw a familiar figure lying on my doorstep.
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"Ya...wake up.."
"Hmm?"
"Ya!"
"Wait-Y-Yoonji?" I nodded as I smile widely.
He hurriedly got up and yelled.
"Woah!! So it worked!!!"
"What?"
"I'm one of you now! I became human!"Then he hugged me.
" H-How? "
" You forgot? "
" Huh? "
" I kissed you! "
" I felt nothing.. back then.. "
" Oh right.. that's because you can't really touch or feel me back then. But I did really kissed you. "
" Yeah, I guess that's the case. "I mumbled as I went inside my house.
" Eyy.. Are you upset? "He said as he followed me inside.
" Yah! I didn't let you in! "
" You will.. 'Cause you're nice right?"He said then he winked at me.
" Yeah, sure.. "I retorted and plopped down on my couch.
He did the same thing.
" Ya, why are you upset? "I glared at him.
" I'm not. "I said in total conviction then stood up.
He grabbed my wrist and pulled me close to him.
" Then why are you acting like this? "He smirked.
" Then what if I said I'm upset, what are you gonna do? "
"Then I have to do this, again."
He pressed his lips against mine and I just closed my eyes.
That's the time when what I really felt is absolutely real.
