honestly, namjoon always gives his best to make sure his members are happy and the band is doing good. if that means that he has to focus on them and not on himself, he's more than willing to do so.
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namjoon collapses during one of their concerts and the others are worried about their leader.
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it was one day before the last day of their tour and the boys were excited as fuck for their final concert in london. three days ago they had their concert in los angeles, practised everyday after it so that they all would be able to show their best performance for their fans for the last time.
when the members weren't practising their dance moves, they would have vocal lessons or go to the gym to stay fit. there was almost no time to rest, every day ends around 1am and begins a few hours later. some members go to bed even later, composing songs, writing lyrics and already working on their next album till the sun starts to rise again.
it's exhausting but they have choosen this life and are so thankful to be where they are right now.
especially namjoon is glad that all of their hard work is finally paying off. they're selling out stadiums, breaking records everyday and win so many awards that he almost isn't able to keep up with how many they already have. it's exhausting but worth it.
that's what he's telling himself right now, sitting in front of his laptop surrounded by the darkness of his room, his eyes hurting from looking at the bright screen for so many hours. it's late at night, everyone else is sleeping peacefully in each of their hotel rooms since they have to be well rested for the concert tomorrow.
namjoon is working on a new song and honestly he just wants to go to bed and sleep until he has to get up again and work even more. but his brain is telling him that it would be a waste of time if he sleeps now when he could just stay awake and work a bit more. so he does just that and "a bit more", turns out to be another three hours. so by the time he's finally asleep it's already 5am and he feels like crying because he knows that he'll have to wake up in two hours and stay awake for another exhausting day.
he can't stop the time so after what feels like ten minutes of sleep for namjoon, hoseok comes into his room and tells the younger one that they're going to the concert venue in one hour and that they should be ready by then. he just gave hoseok a thumbs up and after he left the room, joon slowly stood up and proceeds to get some fresh clothes out of his closet. a hoodie and some jeans, like always lately. he stripped out of his old clothes and just stood there for a second, looking at himself in the big mirror which is hanging on the white wall.
namjoon used to really like his body and was really confident. things have changed since then.
now he tries not to look into the mirror after taking a shower or hides his body with oversized shirts and baggy jeans. he lost some weight the last few weeks, too focused on work and the members to actually eat regulary and healthy. under his eyes were dark circles and when he smiles, there aren't any dimples anymore.
