my thoughts

to: z (date unknown)

sooo how about i had this coworker
we became really good friends
and like literally every situation i overthink
and when i overthink i start to overlook
and when i overlook i start to-
you see where this is going?

we're gonna call him "z" for the time being
(cuz that's the first letter of his name in my phone lol)

anyway,
while we were working together, he would always call me over to him just to wave and say "hey"
or he'd come into drive-thru to talk to me when he's bored
especially towards the end of the night

and that smile,
god that smile is so perfect
THE warmest smile i've ever seen
hands down

and if i get really lucky, when he comes in he'll sometimes hug me
now i know that might sound silly to freak out over a hug but it's like,
damn,
i never want him to let go

there was this one time when i was helping someone in drive-thru with their order, so i was leaning against the front counter facing the menu so i could look at the prices and stuff
and he comes in with some stuff in his hand and walks to the back of the kitchen,
and as i watched through my peripheral i see him walk backwards from where he was going, walk towards me and hug me
he quite literally stopped in his tracks to turn around and hug me

and while i was taking the order, i laid my head on his shoulder

and it felt amazing

there came a period of time where he was having a hard time getting to work on time
and i told him if he needed anything then to call me

i started getting upset because they were trying to fire him
and every time they'd ask me if i knew where he was i could not give them an answer
but i'd always come to his defense and say:
"it's not his fault, he's going through some things"

long story short is, i miss him

and i could really use a hug from him rn