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Meadow Of Loneliness

My mind is once again travelling the world.

Finn, your mind is always travelling.

You see Finn.. He isn't like other boy's. He's nice, kind but very clueless. He lives in a fantasy world. I've loved him since I was at least 3½ years old, of course I've tried to let him know multiple times but he just spaces out.

N..no it doesn't
        
         'He frowns out'

Finn, just admit it

'I shy a small smile'   

Never i.. It's no.. not!

His stutters are just adorable. Too bad he doesn't notice me the same way.

Ahhh, whatever studdly. You wanna play 21 questions?

Please don't reject, I cross my fingers tight.

Sure, me first though. Do you like Michelle?

Hmm, yeah I guess she's kinda cool. Who do you have a crush on?

A person. Would you kiss a frog for 1million dollars?

Ew no way Finn thats gross, whats their name?

Hahaha, you should know who she is Silvey.

His smile only brighten, my heart beat quickened and I felt my stomach churn. If this is the moon goddess answering my prayers after so long I will faint.

Oh I'm not sure who this girl maybe, why don't you describe her for me. If I still don't know than you can tell me.

I smiled a little to hard at this.

Well.. She's pretty beautiful, she's so kind and such a rebel. I love how her eye's sparkle and how her smile just brightens up every room. Oh and she's a little crazy too.

His smile was so bright and my stomach was in pure bliss!

I.. I'm not sure who she is. Can I know her name?

Little did I know,
That would be my down fall,
That is what made me, me.
That was all it took, for a switch to turn off inside of my head. No longer did I care. No longer did I feel. No longer was I pathetically mourning over every memory to feel some whay loved or noticed, by the one I had given all my worth and trust. Poured my love and soul, my entire well-being into them, only to have it be forgotten and simply let slip away. He couldn't give me the time of day let alone give me a chance of expressing my inner loneliness.

I felt as if I was trapped in a meadow, a meadow of Loneliness.

Oh how I wish to have seen this earlier, I was left on the line. Was that how much I meant to him? Or was I just not enough to deserve his rightful compationate love and be treated with feelings?