Me, Myself And I

the man behind The radio

Chapter2

He's incredible..such a kind man he is, or i thought he is.. What am i getting myself into asked myself this a hundred times..i know exactly the right thing to do but then my heart says the opposite of it.
I don't wanna put myself into trouble again..
I've been hurt before and i will just kept on hurting myself if i will get into another one whom i don't even know what exactly the reason behind of his existence..
Arrg.. Gritted my teeth..
Really Stacy Blake?  What the heck are you doing really.. Is that how stupid you are huh!..
Look at you!
You've been living almost four years without a man so why not continuing it thus far..
Sometimes it doesn't right to even think about something in the past but it's inevitable..
It is recorded in the very back of your mind that even if you don't want to play it over and over again it is still there.. It keeps on lingering no matter how hard you try not to think all about it..

At night when all are asleep i cried myself out in bed until i gets tired and decided to fall asleep..
It was a routine or must say a habit even how hard i try not to..
I felt betrayed.. Felt so helpless before.. Thankfully i have my parents beside me who supported me throughout my  journey..
I was broken,i decided to work overseas..brought myself into another part of the world.. It was helpless at first..the sadness,the pain, the part of missing some people behind was as bad as dying..but i get through with it all..
Never thought about man.. About sex.. About getting myself pregnant.. Was amazing..
But funny how fate brought us altogether..
I never thought of it until we find each others way..

As we chatter the next night, he suddenly called me on my phone..
I was in awe..
Was nervous as hell.. Was stuttering goodness i just can't find the right words to say..
Ahm. Hey good evening
Goodvening!how are you stacy? He'd ask.

I'm good thanks.. How about you?
Fine.. Was doing some Homework..
Ohh! So am i interrupting something or what?.
No!  No.  It's just that I'm tired of typing he said..
Ooh okie.. I replied
How was your day?  He asked me again..
Well, it was a little busier than usual but i manage..
I have to.. Since i don't have a choice, am i right? 😆🤔
I giggled..
And he chuckled at my response

Our conversation went on and on until it's already time for me to take my shower and i don't have much sleep that night i tell you..
Hahaha but that was an amazing night in the history of my life anyway..
I get in the shower right after we said our goodbye's..
Was literally going insane..

🎶Singing
In the shower,dancing in the mirror Ladadi Ladida Ladida.

It took an hour for me to finish my shower..take note it's twice to three times in a day..
So grateful to have Been working in a free home country. its like your own home back in your country of origin..
I get myself ready for work..
Open my Walkman and tuning in to the same station..
It was him,yes it's him the voice on air that makes me crazy now everyday..i know my life will never be the same again.. It was odd, but it felt right as well..
I start my work and then get into the next one right after i finished the other..
It was my daily routine so it's not that hard now to take it step 
by step..
That afternoon i called my mother in the Philippines..

Hey mom!  How are y'all doing?
Is everything's fine?  I asked..
Yes! My mother replied..
Your sister want to talk to you my mother said..

Okie.
Bring her on the phone.

Hey! ate..  As we call those who are eldest sister to us..
Hey Lil Sissy.. How was your study? 
I asked as she is still studying.shes on her first year college now..
It was fine.. It's just that.. She continue shyly..
Okie..i think i get you..
Wanna send me some money? How much do you need? I asked.
Just a little amount, ate.
Okie just wait a week before you receive it will you?
Cause my boss is kinda busy with her schedule so we don't have a choice..
Okie she replied.. I tell mom.
Okie fine..
Tell her i love her so much and Papa as well.. Yeah.
Yeah! sure. she replied..
End of our conversation

I continued working until 11pm that night as i have to do something before gets into bed..