The Alpha's Mute [BXB]

07 | chapter seven

Niklaus Wade

"Get that beautiful sex on legs!" Nate exclaims inside me.

My body and mind beg me to move closer but my mind screams for me to be cautious, to remain hesitant. There was so much openness for me to feel hurt, for me to get heartbroken and rejected by Gnashton as there was nothing holding him back from rejecting someone like me. Sure Gnashton would feel the pain of rejecting his one and only soulmate but it wouldn't hurt him nearly as much as it'd break me into two, not like I haven't felt that already, but I knew him rejecting me would be my breaking point.

Despite the fear, the anxiety and everything screaming for me to run away, my legs drag me forward. It's the mate connection I knew that but what more is the way Gnashtons eyes draw me in and pull me closer as if there was a magnetic pull between us.

The embarrassment of being nude is very much still in my mind, my hands cover myself but that doesn't stop Gnashton from roaming my entire body up and down like I was a meal he wanted to devour. He looked like he's been craving me, his tongue darted out of his mouth to lick his lips and I felt my insides stir with the feeling that I was walking closer to be eaten by the Alpha himself.

It's intimidating but more than that, it's sending my body on fire. There's so much electricity running through me, so much that I'm afraid if I move any closer sparks will erupt. It's only an exaggeration but the amount of heat pooling in my stomach made my breathing quicken and my legs unstable but my legs still moved.

Gnashton Wade. The man capable of breaking bones and deforming a persons face, the same person who has no regard for others and smiles at another's pain filled screams. He terrified me but interested me at the same time; the emotions I felt when it came to him was so conflicting. He'd beat people up and not care once so ever how much pain he left them in, something that reminded me so much of my parents.

I was so scared that he'd be like my parents with his temperament and violent tendencies but there was this little voice in my head that urged me to believe in him, to trust him but I've never trusted anyone. There was so much dissonance within me that I wondered why the hell I was still moving towards him but his eyes drew me in, the feelings bubbling up in my stomach told me exactly why I was moving closer to him.

This feeling told me exactly why I was taking a chance such as this. None of this made sense and this is so out of character of me but I'm still moving as if I've been brainwashed.

I'm inches away from Gnashton when my body stops on its own accord, the terror coming back to life as my eyes take in his every feature. Looking at him closely like this, in this light I realize something. He's beautiful. His green eyes that shine in the light with the little specs of hidden gold. The imperfect curve of his nose that made him who he is. The kiss of pigment that graces his lips that are just so—so...I couldn't dare say nor think it but they were so kissable. Gnashton is truly a sight to see. Looking at him closely, I felt like if I looked away he'd disappear from my sight, never to appear before me again.