*flashback dream*
"Lacy. Hold my hand." She said weakly.
A tear rolled down my cheek as i yelled "llMom dont go!! You cant go just yet! No! Please stay." I grabbed her hand. The machine went beep beep beep beep beep.
Then it stopped for a tiny millisecond, the machine made a solid "Beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep"
Shes gone. Shes gone. Forever. I took a deep breath. "im gonna step out for a bit." I gasped as i ran outside. I plugged in my music and listened to No Doubt, dont speak.
*end of flashback dream*
I quickly sat up and screamed. Its midnight and i cant breathe. My anxiety attack came back. Like it does nearly every night. I usually cry myself to sleep. But not tonight. I couldnt even sleep. All i can do is think. I turned on the tv to Friends. Maybe that will help.
I watched the episode called 'the one with the free porn'
It was were Joey and Chandler turn on their tv and get this free adult channel. It was funny. They said if you leave the tv on it will he there forever so they wouldnt let Phoebe, Rachel, or Monica even touch the tv.
"Its not working!!" I yelled. I checked my phone and logged onto Snapchat. I had like a million snaps. Thats what i get for not being on for a day. And guess who they are from?
Jason. Should i even read them? No? Maybe? Yes? I opened them and saw that he said what i saw at the doctors office wasnt what it looked like and i misunderstood, blah blah blah and the girl was his COUSIN!!
"What the fuck. Im stupid." I said to myself.
I called him and invited him over i had to leave a message. I told
Him i had big news for him and he should know.
