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“I see stars in her eyes everytime she looks at you.”
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＜＜＜A Year Ago
『L.O.ㅅ. E cafe』
"The pistol star is the most-"
"Luminous star known-- 10 times the power of the sun and as big as the size of Earth's entire orbit around the sun. Aish, I know that already. Move on to anorher page. Eyy.. Ya, Seonmi... Do you think that guy is cute?"
"EH??! " I nearly spit the food that I'm eating now.
What is he doing here?
"Eh? What's with the reaction? Do you know him?"
And what a good timing! Note the sarcasm.
"Oh hey Seonmi!" That guy called me.
"Woah...daebak.. You really know him.. Why didn't you introduce me?"
"I.. I.. I-"
"Oh you're eating with a friend?" He suddenly talked.
"Hi!!!"My friend said cheerfully.
Honestly, I have never seen her this happy. She's always serious and focused on her studies.
"Eyy.. Seonmi!"
"W-What?"
"Introduce me to your friend." She said while she continuously nudged me.
Meanwhile, I saw this guy chuckled.
"Actually I'm Seonmi's boy-"
"Boy bestfriend!" I continued.
He just looked at me confused and I mouthed him 'please just act with me'.
Thankfully, he did.
"Oh yeah.. I'm Minhyun. Hwang Minhyun. Seonmi's 'boy bestfriend'."
"Woahh..bestfriend??Why did I not know? Yahh! Seonmi! Why are you keeping secrets now?"
"Hehe I'm sorry.."
"It's okay! Eyy Minhyun-ssi you can sit with us.. Ahmm can I just call you Minhyun?" Heejin said as she can't take her eyes off from Minhyun.
"Oh sure.. " Minhyun hesitantly said as he steal glances from me.
And there we talked about life and love... instead of reviewing for our exams.
"Aishh.. Why do I have to do this project in the midst of examination? Ahmm guys, I think I need to go now.. Hehe see you Seonmi.. And you too Minhyun.. Next time?"
"Oh yeah...sure"
Then Heejin left.
"Seonmi..." He glared at me.
I just bit my lip.
"I'm... Sorry... You know.. It's just that I've never seen my bestfriend that happy when she saw you."
"And so?"
"I just wanted her to be happy..."
"I don't undertsand."
"She became lonely since her parents died and even I'm her bestfriend, I still can't make her that.. you know-- Truly happy...like it's always forced.. But when she saw-"
"So what are you trying to say?"
"Please make her truly happy. "
"Seonmi..are you out of your mind?"
"You know that if I have to choose between anything... I will still choose my conscience."
"conscience?"
"I can't afford to see me being happy while the ones around me aren't."
"You are aware that if you're not happy... I'm also not."
"I'm really sorry.. You don't deserve me. Let's break up."
I stood up with tears in my eyes and I left him.
What's important to me is what in others eyes.
I don't know that his eyes are the same as mine.
He's right.
It's not conscience. It's a choice between friendship and love.
No matter whom I choose. There would be someone that would get hurt.
