Broken

Broken.
When people bring my name up, the first definition to pop up is: Broken.
When people ask me how I'm doing, I say I'm fine but I'm: broken.

How much longer will I do this?

How much longer will I live these dreams, think something good has happened and then, WOW?! What a surprise it's not real.

I try so hard, so, so hard to do something right and yet I can't.

I'm useless.
No one likes me.
I should just die.
I should stop trying.

.......

Because I'm stuck in a dream.

You know, I've seen those movies, where the protagonist is living the same day, they have a duty they have to do.

For example, find who the killer is, or; Try to have the perfect marriage. The difference between their story and mine is they have accomplished what they were trying to do, and instead of doing something, I stay here ranting about my messed up life.

WHAT DO I HAVE TO COMMIT TO?!

How much longer do I go over the same cycle, want to die, then feel loved, gOsH I fucking think I'm bipolar!

HOW MUCH LONGER TILL I CAN BE NORMAL?!

Never.

I hear inside my head, every time I ask these stupid questions.

It's all his fault.

That jungkook guy.

"There she is"

He had his eye on me from day one.

He knew exactly who I was, what my weaknesses were, and just how stupid I could get.

He knew I was just another girl who would  fall for his looks and then he could completely rip me apart.

But how? How does he do these .... things? How does he make me live the same dream? Or change? Why does he keep appearing?!

How will I ever find the answer?

My questions almost come out as statements due to the fact that I will never have them answered.

Now, that's an explanation of broken.

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Hi yeeters.

Aka 6 people.

So wtf do I do?? This is boring af

ILL GIVE U AIDS BTW