Broken

Im okay.

5 months later<<

Am I meant to keep acting like I'm okay?
If so, for how long?
How long do I need to fake a smile, or say I'm fine, say I'm doing alright?
How long will I hold all my tears in until I sleep? How long?

I don't know.
I just don't know anymore.
And I can't live with myself, I can't live with this pain.

I knew I was always going to be driven to this moment.

The moment where I stand in front of a tree, with a long rope dangling down.
A small loop, the perfect fit for my neck.

I always knew, knew that I was so weak.

It's all because of that f-FUCKING JUNGKOOK!!

It's all because of him....

I don't realise that fresh tears cup my face, and I suddenly choke a sob when I remember

He leans in a bit closer..
"Hey..... Mi-Rae.... can we maybe.... have a date?"

He broke me, and I hope he knows it.
I hope he realises what he did to me the second he sees my grave.

The second he sees my lifeless body.

I grab the rope and loop it over my fragile neck before saying what I think are my last words.

But then I feel large strong hands fold around my waist, in an aggressive manner.
Making sure I don't do anything stupid.

"Mi-Rae. WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING?!"

That voice seems way to all familiar for me to forget, husky ,deep, but not to deep.

He takes the rope off my neck aggressively
"OH, your so fucking stupid!"

He pulls me down and hugs me
Tears roll down my cheeks continuously as I hug him back.

Because i know it's the last time.
The last Time I'll feel his hands cover me, and say how sorry he is.

The last time, the last time I'll see his precious face.

The last time I'll see anything.

Because I don't have a happy ending.

Slowly I grab the gun from my back pocket.

I take a step back.

And I point it at my chest.

I smile, "do you remember this?" ...

"Hm? You rememb-" I choke a sob

"DO YOU FUCKING REMEMBER?!"

"THE DAY WHEN YOU BROKE MY HEART?"

He stands there so scared, so pale.

And I pull the trigger..

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Hello my people;
Soooooooo yeah this was honestly kind of scary to write.

But dun worry next chapter will put some faith in humanity for u.