A Scarlet Vision FanFic - Dear Vision,

Chapter 2: the first letter

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Dear Vision,

You know I can still remember the last email I sent you like I only wrote it yesterday? It was right before we met up in Scotland that last time. I know you'd remember it just as well. I was so excited to see you again, at that point even being apart for three weeks was so difficult, being apart a week, a day, an hour was sometimes too much to deal with. Especially with all the running and the hiding. Knowing that I would get to see you was what kept me going. I wanted to spend the rest of my life with you. And now I'll never get the chance.

You're dead by the way. Obviously, you'd know that if you were actually reading this, which you can't be cause... y'know. And we won... there's that too.

Oh, and I'm getting counselling. Surprise! You encouraged me to seek help after Pietro but I didn't listen... well you got what you wanted.

It's been two days since I came back to life, two days (my time not everyone else's) since you died. Two days since I came back to a life that you are no longer in.

For everyone else it's been five years since The Snap. Sometimes I wish they hadn't brought us back. I know that's selfish of me, Vis. But I can still remember the relief I felt when I died before I had to face the fact that I would have to live in a world where you didn't exist. But here I am, trying to learn to live in a world where you aren't.

My grief counsellor suggested I write to you like this and trust me I'm already crying, and we haven't even got to the point of this letter. Lauren, that's my counsellor, sent me a bunch of questions and she says she wants me to reflect on the part of life that I spent with you so I guess I should try and do that? I'm not sure what I'm doing Vis so bear with me.

I guess I'll start at the beginning?

You and I both know it took a while for us to actually get closer. At the beginning I was on the wrong side remember? I think we were always destined to be something more though, at least I like to think of it like that. Our connection was strong even in the beginning - at least I think it was for you too.

The first time I really felt you was when you saved me after we defeated Ultron. I lost a part of myself when Pietro passed and suddenly, I couldn't control myself. We all know that city pretty much fell because of me and so when I realised I was the last one left I let myself fall. I was ready to die. But you came in at the last second and got me out and for a bit there I almost wished you hadn't because it hurt... it always hurts losing someone like that. You saved me that time in ways that go beyond the physical act and I don't think you ever truly knew that. I wish I'd told you sooner.

Living with you and the rest of the team for that year at the compound was probably the best time of my life. You taught me to not be afraid of my powers and I'd hate to see where I would be now without that. Plus, you were really sweet so there was that too. Ah... when you tried to make me Paprikash - I don't think you realised but that made me so happy - even if it definitely didn't taste the way it should have. You told me later that you think you were starting to feel something more for me even before then, you always joked that you fell in love with me first.

I'm gonna skip the part where things got complicated after the fight between Cap and Tony because that was way too complicated.

I'll never forget the first time I snuck away from Nat and the rest of the team to spend a night with you. It was only for a night because back then they didn't let me out of their sight for long, but it was worth it. You remember we sat on the roof of a random building in New York - I can't even remember why we were in New York at the time. But I can still remember that moment so clearly.