The New New

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* This is not a story this is simply the let go of my inter thoughts and this is the only place I feel free to say them. There is no outline and it's completely all over the place. This is personally an open minded, giant thought please feel free to comment your opinions as well*

Some days you feel defeated, broken down, and have nothing to look forward to. Sometimes you feel stressed and like everything is out of your control. You feel nothing's going your way. You feel there's nothing left there's nothing there you're empty. Sometimes you need a tear to feel relieved. A tear, a cry, or a flowing river you need something that pushes the wall. See there's walls everyone has them. These walls cause problems and controversy it's a matter of climbing, rerouting, or full out breaking through them and unfortanuetly some don't make through but if you have made it this far were you're reading this at this very second, on this very day you've made it you've made it through a wall or a whole building. From this point there's no reason to stop this is you're beginning this is the new new.

Music is always an escape. It takes you places you never knew existed, it gives you emotions you've never felt, it's a thing that brings you closer to others, it's an escape within yourself, it's a voice, it's a power. some times the lyrics the artist put in are a deeper concept on the world . "I don't want the world to see me because I don't think that'd understand when everything's made to be broken I just want you to know who i am" The goo dolls say and it takes a couple of reads to really gasp what it's saying. For some people to understand exactly what it says and for others it comes a little slower. Either way is okay. One of my favourite lyrics of all time is "it's okay not to be okay" by Jessie j, Also "am I apart of the disease or am I apart of the cure" by Coldplay. These are lyrics that assure yourself for who you are. Jessie tells you it's okay not be sure all the time it's okay to break down and be emotional it's okay not to be perfect. Coldplay tells you society is society whether you chose to be in it or not you will never know what the cure is or if there's a disease. And finally the goo goo dolls let you be you who you truly are. They emphasize that even the things are made to last forever can be broken but it's not about the broken pieces or who you're left with its the you that's with you at the end.

Wow life's like an ocean it really is. The greatest thing about it being an ocean is that it's so big. There's always a place for you but the coolest thing is that's there's no set place, there's no place you have to be forever. You can swim and along the way meet new things and creatures. There's a whole underneath and above to experience it's a matter a taking the dive or the jump. It's a matter of the terms getting out of society's lane. The straight line. Make life an unwritten book make it a circlular curve only repeating the things that you enjoy and circling back around and curving out the hard parts.

Also there's terms like "there's plenty of fish in the sea" well there is. there's lots of fish actually no person is a like whether you're looking for a friend, a lover, or not even looking for anything at all your in this open place with lots of fish and plenty of things to do and meet. For some being out in the open water is a fear it's scary to alone but see your looking at it only one way. every road has a direction life is the same way. Fear is something you don't understand that's it. A lot of other people are afraid yet we all in this together. So why are we all afraid.

For those you don't swim there's boats and for those who are seasick there's medicine. You can always learn how to swim one way or another

Lyrics are stories that are being sung or deeper meanings on the world it's different points of views. Some songs have no meaning and that's simply records looking for money at the end of the day.

I personally do not come off as the nicest person. Sometimes my personality is taken the wrong way unfortunately for me I don't know that until laying in bed and realizing wow did I really say that thinking back to maybe that hurt someone's feelings. Sometimes you get caught up trying to be so many different things for youself that you don't realize what you're actually doing. Then again I try hard to be nice. Try to keep everything positive make sure everything you say is not only kind to you but the person you are talking to. I didn't like being that person it took a little while but I think I'm starting to figure it out that being nice should be the only person you are. A lot of the problem was I was trying to be funny and being funny was generally hurting someone in return instead of making people laugh. The biggest problem was not thinking about what I was going to say before I said it. The hardest part is realizing the problem the best part is knowing you can always improve.

The reason I didn't say change is because a lot of people don't like change even though at the end of the day it's for you, a lot of people are not okay with change. Change should always be for better rather then conformity. There's nothing worse then conforming. Inertia is to be at rest or not moving you have to over come your inertia to change. Or in other words you have to move to change your direction and get some where in life.

See there's no such thing as society. Society is just a bunch of individuals that make other individuals feel bad about themselves because their insecure about who they are. Everyone conforms in one way, rather you know it or not. And for those of you who don't know what conform means its changing into something to fit in better.

Eminem says "I act like shit don't phase inside it drives me crazy my insecuties could eat me alive" sometimes you have to take what society says and completely shut it out listening to music is that way for me. Eminem explains that perfectly to me. What I put out on the outside is a showing but what's really going on inside is driving me insane and that brings me to why I made this. I have all theses thoughts on how things should be and how people should not be afraid of open water or change its about being yourself in this world before its all taking away. I had to put this down before it drove me crazy keeping it all in on the inside.

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I hope I didn't offend any one in this but simply just show my point of view as everyone is entitled to one I hope you enjoyed I'll post more as they come enjoy your night✌️