I don't know what I'm doing with my life anymore

Here's some bad poetry

Warning still dark

What did you do to me

Why do I feel so broken 

Why do I have so much regret

Why am I so worthless

Why am I so useless

They tell me to be happier

They don't see through the facade of happiness

They don't see the thin white lines

They don't hear the thoughts

They don't feel the pain

They say I'm to happy to be depressed

They don't see what happens behind closed doors

They don't see my insecurities

They don't know 

probably never will

warning even darker 

It was so cold that spring morning

It was a sad day

Crying

Regret

Memories

Mourning

Everyone was in black

Seeing them for the last time 

Dressed for the happiest day of there life

That would never come to fruition

Because of another

Because of you

Was it worth it

I'll see you in hell next time we meet

You monster

Being cut to pieces

Being pulled apart 

Sewing yourself back together

Stitching yourself back together 

The cycle repeats

Nothing ever improves

Can it improve

No it can 't 

No matter how much you tried

You'll never be truly alive

You 'll never truly be happy

for

Goodbye for now 

( I'm still fine ,I promise)