~My Pov~
I woke up the next morning to a breeze blowing in from the open window. I groaned and got up to shut it. I pulled it shut and closed the curtains. I turned around and instantly froze. The room I woke up in was different. I looked around. I examined the room and found that I was in Andy's room but why. I looked down at myself. I still had clothes on so I was safe. Andy walked in. He looked as if he hadn't sleep in a while. He smiled at me.
"Morning, Rose." He greeted.
I nodded to him and smiled.
"What was I doing sleeping in your room?" I asked.
He hesitated.
"I don't know. You passed out and Jinxx brought you up here." He answered.
I could tell he was lying but I left it alone.
"I'm gonna go shower." I said before walking out of the room and toward my room. As I walked, Ashley was coming out of him bedroom. He flashed me an apologetic glance. I returned a confused one. I was worried now. They're keeping something from me. I continued walking to my room. I opened the door and immediately, tears started running down my cheeks. Jayy was pinned to the bed with Jeffree on top of him. They were both naked and going at it. I started shaking.
"YOU MOTHER FUCKER!" I screamed.
They pulled away from each other and gave me shocked glances. Jayy pushed Jeffree off of him and stood up.
"Don't even think about it!" I growled. "I don't want to hear your excuses."
I walked into my bathroom and locked the door. I slid down and instantly balled my eyes out. After a couple minutes, I looked at my vanity. I opened it and pulled out my razor. I looked at my wrist and placed the blade to it. I made several cuts on my wrist. Only deep enough to bleed but never further. All the while Jayy and everyone tried to get me to come out. I rinsed my razor and arm off and put the razor away. I stripped down and hopped in the shower. I hissed as the hot water hit my wrist. I did my thing and got out. I whipped myself down with a towel and wrapped it around me. I grabbed some cover up and put it on my wrist until the cuts weren't noticeable. Then, I unlocked the door and walked out. Everyone was standing there. I looked right at Jayy and glared. Everyone seemed to noticed that I found out.
"Get the fuck out, asshole!" I snarled.
Jayy shot me a sad glance before he just walked out. Jeffree wasn't in here so that was good. I walked into my closet and got dressed. I walked out and everyone had left except for Andy. He was sitting on my bed. When he saw me he stood and hugged me. I instantly broke down in his arms.
"Shah..it's ok." He soothed. "You deserve better than him."
"But it felt so right with him." I cried.
"Shah..." Andy said against my hair.
That didn't help me. It just made me cry worse. Why did he do that? Wasn't I good enough for him? What the well is wrong with me?
