In Due Time...

||Pain||

Dons' Place
Damien

When I pulled up with Don, I already recognized faces in the crowd. Walking through them heads immediately turned welcoming me home and dapping me up. It felt good to know I hadn't been forgotten. The function was already jumpin', but once we walked in, it got turnt even more. This bad lil' shawty I used to mess with back in high school, Eda, came up to me "Well if it ain't Damien." She said looking me up and down. I'm not even gon' front she was looking fine. She was light skin, big pink lips that I remember being soft, and she had big brown eyes. "What's happenin' Eda." I said checking her out too, she came in for a hug so I hugged her back. While hugging her I looked up to see a face I haven't seen in a while. I remembered that brown skin with the golden undertones, the slim body figure, the scar on her right arm from when she fell as a kid, the long silky brown-ish black hair, the glow of her favorite lip gloss. It was Nia.

Our eyes connected and for an instant, for the slightest of moments, I felt the need to cry out my pain to her. But, I didn't. I let go of Eda, and stared at Nia coldly. Her eyes were filling with tears and her face was scrunched with confusion. Quincy came behind her and grabbed onto her arm, but she didn't move. Neither did our eyes. "You good D?" I heard Eda say. I broke eye contact with Nia and looked at Eda "Yeah I'm straight. You tryna get out of here?" She started to smirk "We could go back to my pl-" she was cut off "D?" I heard Nia's bittersweet voice flutter in my ears. I clenched my jaws trying to contain myself. "I- I missed you." She said quietly. I wanted to say something, but I couldn't. I didn't say a word I just.... watched her. She reached out to touch me, but I shifted my body away. When I did, she jolted back. She sucked up her tears, let out a slight laugh, and threw her drink in my face. "Fuck you D." The party instantly got silent, watching Nia and I. I walked up closer to her standing toe to toe, when Quincy put his hand on my chest as if to keep my distance. I looked at her then him, and walked out.

As I was walking out, I heard Eda calling me from behind. But, I didn't stop walking. When she finally caught up she grabbed onto my shoulder. "Hey D are you good?" I turned around and looked at her "I'm gon' be straight." All of a sudden a silence fell upon the conversation. "Well... you seem to have a lot on you're mind. Maybe I could help?" Eda said inching closer to to me. I looked at her and laughed slightly. "What's up with it?" I replied. Anything to get this bullshit off my mind.

Nia

My heart felt as if it were straining, my eyes felt hot, my throat felt dry, and it felt as if every vein in my body was throbbing. I've waited for this moment, when he'd return. I thought.... I thought the hole in my heart would be restored, but it feels as if the hole got ten times deeper. "Nia, lets go home." Quincy said from behind me. He grabbed my hand and led me to his car. He opened the door for me and I got in. He jogged to the drivers side and started the car. We rode in silence the whole way home.

When we got to my apartment, I went to open the door then stopped. "Can you... go home for tonight?" I didn't want to see his reaction, so I didn't look at him. "Uh yeah, whatever." Then he walked off. I got in the house, and lugged myself to the bedroom. I changed into a big T-shirt and put my hair into my bonnet, before plopping into bed. As soon as I closed my eyes tears started to fall again. I sobbed quietly to myself in my room all alone with the moonlight shining through the shades as it did that night. In that moment all I could think was "I miss him."

10:30 a.m.
Nia

I woke up instantly remembering the night. I checked my phone to see text messages from multiple people mostly asking if I was ok. I didn't reply. I sighed, got out of bed, and made my way to the bathroom where I did my morning routine. I went to the kitchen afterwards made myself a bowl of cornflakes then made my way to the couch and watched cartoons. I wasn't really watching though, I couldn't focus. I took a deep breathe and decided to take a trip to see my mom.