Issues [Fairy Tail fanfic]

Chapter 38

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"It wasn't my fault" Natsu said looking at himself in the mirror.

"It wasn't my fault" he repeated.

No matter how many times he said it though, he still didn't believe it.

"It wasn't my fault, it wasn't my fault, it wasn't my fault, it was my fault" he said.

What was his fault? Was it his fault that his Mother died? Was it his fault that his Father left him? How? How exactly was it Natsu's fault? How could he blame himself for a force that was out of his hands, out of his control? He couldn't do anything about it, he couldn't have changed anything... could he?

It all goes back to the same question... why? Why had his Father left? Why did he leave? Bora... he had the same life as him... all this time they we're so alike. Natsu could turn up like him if he didn't face his fears. Natsu blaming himself wasn't the answer, it wasn't giving him any answers either. It's not my fault Natsu thought.

Whose fault was it then?

"She fell asleep half an hour ago" Jellal said handing Wendy over to Lucy.

She nodded and carried her.

"Have fun babysitting?" Lucy asked with an amused smile.

"Actually yeah, I did. Thanks for asking" Jellal responded, giving his own amused smile at her.

"Good to know, might need your services in the future" Lucy said walking down his porch steps.

"Just call, bye Lucy" Jellal said.

"Bye Jellal" Lucy said back.

She walked home carrying the little girl on her back. She made a note to herself to text Natsu later to make sure he hadn't gotten suicidal.

Friday, 8:00 pm...

"You dead yet? -Lucy"

She waited 4 minutes until he responded; Natsu actually cracked a smile at the message.

"Still alive and kicking...-Natsu"

Lucy placed her phone on her nightstand and laid on her bed. What should she do this weekend?

Saturday, 12:45 pm...

"Rise and shine... unless you're dead that is... -Lucy"

Lucy sunk her spoon in her bowl and lifted up a spoon full of cereal to her mouth. A message came back a few seconds later.

"Yes rise and shine, feeding Happy at the moment. If I was going to kill myself I'd make sure to give Happy away first... -Natsu"

Lucy nodded at the phone. She liked Happy, she needed him. Natsu couldn't say he wasn't annoyed at the text messages he was getting from Lucy, but he was grateful that his girlfriend was checking in on him though. She was actually caring for his well being. Natsu wasn't planning on killing himself off, he wasn't that much of a coward to do so.

Saturday, 7:45 pm...

"I am pleased to tell you I got invited to a party tonight and didn't go... saving my life for the future, are you doing the same?... -Lucy"

Natsu laughed when he got this text.

"I am also pleased to hear that but tell me through, how many beers did you drink before you got invited to the party? And how many after you decided not to go? ... -Natsu"

Shit... Natsu had her. When did he start getting so smart?

"You got me, I went to a before party before I got invited to the real party. Be happy I'm not going to that party though or the after party... if you were dead you wouldn't have noticed so it's nice to know you're not a zombie... brains... -Lucy"