my life as a popular teenager

The recall

Fred pov

mimi pick up pls "I thought to myself" but she isn't 

ohhhh dat girl is too stubborn 

mimi pov

am I over reacting ? 

"he kissed her" I say 'almost in tears

why will he do such to me what have I done to him to deserve this!

ahhhhh I hate boys 'I hiss....."I rest my case" I say dramatically

;well I know u might b wondering why I haven't spoken of any friends 

well that's cos am an introvert "extreme" well and this is not my first relationship surprise surprise 

you know that feeling of knowing so many people and still being so lonely ?

that is how I feel every single second of the day 

HE CALLS AGAIN 

"ahhh ok I'll pick so he'll stop calling!" I say'

"hello" he says in a cold tone all grumpy 

"hi" I say equally weak

"we should talk" he says 

"ok" I say weakly before I can overthink  like I always do 'cutting the call instantly 

I really don't know why I just said that but I guess that is the effect he has on me 

I love him I feel like a fool cos of him! sad right?

I just check for more love movies and scanning my room for my blanket  for a chance to drift into someone else's love story and forget my own broken love? story

'but like seriously why cant love be so easy and natural like in the movies that fair tail kinder love where the guy meets the girl takes her on a very romantic date in a pack or a very fancy restaurant for a fancy eat out ,chat ,play  ,laugh  get close to each other but Morden days boys just want to skip all the steps and take you to bed. probably make some babies lol

that is why I said I will never date again "but he is making me break all my rules" I scream 

I love him soo much  and am breaking all my rules I can feel it already my greatest fear its happening again I panic and feel my body tens up a bit 

I don't want to come out of this one broken ,and lost like the previous 

 hmmmmm' I sign at the terrible remembrance 

it was really tragic the sleepless nights spent crying, the weight loss caused by lack of food ,I lost my best friends cos I was way too creepy for them  and how I upgraded from extrovert to extreme introvert  was that a downgrade? cos I really love it now any way that was how I lost my social life yeah I know what you are thinking "story of my life"

am mentally exhausted  from overthinking but am mimi and that is what I do best right?

I turn on simi's remind me and just allow the music to flow into my blood stream 

I cant do this no more 

I cant find any movie to watch I feel like I one day Netflix will tell me "sorry miracle you have watched every single movie in our love and romance category pls go find a hobby get some dirt under your nails" and log out my account preventing me from ever creating a new one 

sad right 

let me just sleep mtcheeeeew 'I hiss

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