Fronnie ♥ (Freddy x Bonnie)

Bottily Feelings

(You can listen to the song whenever but I will tell you when it's best to listen it in the story. <3)

(TRIGGER WARNING THIS CHAPTER HAS DEPRESSING AND SUICIDAL CONTENT LANGUAGE WARNING) LONG CHAPTER ALERT!

(Bonnie's POV)C

-FAST FORWARD 4 WEEKS-

It's Saturday. I am just going to lay around and write in my diary. I'm just so depressed. I know I can talk to puppet but I'm not ready yet. I am so rigid right now.. I could snap at anything that's how bad my depression and anxiety is. I know Freddy is not gay or bi, I just know. He will never like me.. I am a freak! I guess I will write in my diary. It's getting so full.. I need a new one. 

(Bonnie's Journal)

Dear Diary..     (PLAY THE SONG NOW! o3o)

Christmas. It's next Sunday.. I'm so not ready for it. I just want to die. No one loves me and understands. Christmas will be worse.. I will have to act 'happy' again. I've forgotten what that feels like. I just fake smile and fake being happy. I honestly understand now that I will never be happy. I just need to drown every feeling out. I want to feel nothing. I just want to end it all. What's the point of life at this point. It's just going to get worse. I'm so unstable.. I need happiness. Where's God when I need him? I just need comfort.. snuggles OwO. I can't. At least me diary understands me, it listens. Oh you stupid thing you're just a book. You're so tattered. I remember the day I got you. I was 10. Spring Bonnie gave you to me because i kept using all of mom's paper to write. Toy Bonnie bought me pencils. 107 of them to be exact. Oh, the happy times. Writing seemed to be the only way I coped with things. I miss my mother. I could tell her anything. My father beat her to death when I was just 11. Spring Bonnie let me and Toy Bonnie to our Aunt Shadow Bonnie's house where she called the police and he was put in jail for life. I honestly just want to freaking die. I'd be damned if my dad escaped. Oh well.

Thanks for listening to my pity party, Bonnie.

Just then there was a knock at the door. I was crying and I quickly wiped my tears, threw my book under my bed and opened my door. It was chica. "Hey Bonnie.. are you okay?" She said in a soft voice. "Yeah I'm.." I managed to sputter it out. I started to bawl.. dammit. Not in front of her. She just hugged me.. But what was this feeling? Was it.. hope? Why am I hopeful? It's just animatronic contact not 'hope'. I let go and wiped my tears.  "I cooked you a pizza.. I didn't burn it this time!" She said, trying to cheer me up. I chuckled. Chica's just.. something else (o3o) "Come on Bonnie! You haven't eaten all week. I KNOW something's wrong. Just.. look at you. Something is obviously wrong." Before I knew it she grabbed me by my arm and  dragged me to the kitchen. Foxy and Freddy were in the dining room chatting while eating a fresh pizza. I will admit, it looked delicious. When I happened to glance at Freddy he looked at me. Oh god no I looked at the kitchen door, which I now have entered. Chica grabbed a pizza pan with a full pizza on it and handed to me. She said I can eat in here, which relieved me. "So, Bonnie.. Do you have a thing for Freddy?" I choked and had to cough up my pizza. How could she know? "What the hell Chica?" I choked out. "I mean, you act all shy and awkward toward him! You blush when he compliments you or says something to you! You guys would be so cute!!" I could tell she was fangirling. "Chica, If I told you something, would you keep it" I asked, with doubt in my face. "Yes. I can keep a secret. How does this place stay stable if I couldn't keep a secret?" She said. I chuckled. She was so cute. "I kind of like Freddy.. it's just, I think he's straight so don't think anything will happen." I said while shoving pizza in my mouth. I was deathly hungry. "Actually Bonnie, he's Bisexual as of right now I think." Chica said while biting her pizza.WHAT WHAT WHAT WHAT WAIT NO AHHH. Okay I need to calm down. I finished my pizza in 10 minutes. "You want another one?" Chica asked. "Nah I'm good I need to go back to my room. It's 8:00 pm and I haven't slept this week yet." I said. then I walked back t my room and the second I laid down I was out.

*Monday, 5:00 am*

 I was awoken my a knock on the door. I answered. It was Freddy. "Dude you've been sleeping since saturday. Come on we need to get on stage."Freddy said. I was speechless. "What?!"