AIR - Breathing for you

Me, being confused about life

I didn't understand. This situation weirded me out. I mean, If you think about it, this is what happened: Blake, a guy who I didn't even know and have talked to once in my life before and this was a couple of minutes ago and he shouldn't even know my name (!) asked my ex best friend and my now ( kind of but not really) enemy to invite me to her party. Like... what the heck did just happen? First of all: why did he know that Brianna and I know each other? Second of all: why the heck did she listened to him and asked me? And third of all: why did I say yes?

" Uh... well... I don't know if I have time on Friday, but yeah sure", I murmured and Brianna looked like my answer disappointed her. Maybe the made up a bet about me. Something like: " I bet she will never start something with Blake Tomlinson". Maybe she was scared to loose. I don't know why, but in this very moment I actually didn't care. 

She looked surprised. I was surprised too. As an introvert I never joined social events. And I thought I wouldn't ever go a highschool party! That just wasn't me, not my thing to do. So I don't even know myself, why I said yes. Maybe I just was confused about that she even asked me and I was perplex. Or I in some way was flattered that she had asked me and that the idea came from Blake Tomlinson. I was ever once in my entire life at a real party and it was a horrible experienced; I had social anxiety so I drank and drank too much. I threw up on Jamie Parkinson. He surprisingly wasn't very pleased, I guess and now always glimmer at me with anger when we met in the halls. I don't know, it just wasn't a good experience and now I never ever wanted to go to a party again. Especially not the party of my ex best friend. So, no I probably wouldn't go. And still... why had I said yes to her?