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bro-ken

adjective;

Having been fractured or damaged and no longer in one piece or in working order. Have given up all hopes; despairing

Broken thats how I feel like nothing could ever fix me again, its like I'm not me anymore and I'll never be me any longer. Who ever knew he was capable of such harm towards me. Will I recover? Or better yet do I want to recover? He made me so used to the pain and now I feel nothing but emptiness and that scares me. My writing is getting more messier as I try to see through the tears. But should I do what I've wanted to do for a long time. Its crazy, he always told me I was crazy. Maybe I am. But I cried, I fought, I tried, but I'm crashing down. My demons are screaming louder trying to eat away the rest of me. And this time I'm not going to fight back. This is it, the end of my misery. Will anyone miss me? Probably not I'm just at the bottom of the "food chain" and a useless person taking up space. Everyone hates and I'm worthless so this just seems like the right thing to do. But how was I so stupid to think someone like him could ever love someone like me. He was right all the names he ever called me were true I'm just no one taking up space for someone else who is truly important. He may have been awful to me but I still love him and I think I'll always love him. So I take small steps to the end of my misery. Closer and closer to the window and I'm gone. Maybe I'll be happy then.

"Chloe, honey, no please don't jump! My mother pleads.

"You can't stop this mama, I'm done I can't fight it anymore" I say.

Broken| Ashton IrwinWhere stories live. Discover now