OH, LOVE ★ HARUWOO

OH, LOVE

'10:49 P.M.'

Jeongwoo sighs upon seeing the time flash on his cellphone, notifications of missed calls and unread texts popping under the big bold numbers simultaneously. Quickly, he tosses the device back on the counter and leaves it unattended.

He has been in the bar for more than three hours now, continuously downing glass after glass of alcohol and completely drinking his sorrows away. Well, trying to. After his shitty breakup with Junghwan just this evening, he wanted nothing more than to drink to forget, so he hailed a taxi to the nearest bar, and although it looked super fucking sketchy at first, Jeongwoo immediately ordered an unhealthy amount of alcohol and started drinking.

What was the real reason behind their break up? Jeongwoo does not know. All he knows is that Junghwan made out with Inhong the night before and asked Jeongwoo for a break up the day after, because apparently, he had been dating him for the past two weeks and did not know how to tell him. Jeongwoo saw bullshit in every word that came out of his mouth, and was, in fact, about to fight Inhong over the phone, but he was so hurt by Junghwan's words that he did not have any strength left to bitch over the situation. So instead, he cried like a fool and even threatened to kill himself right then and there.

He just does not get it. Is he not enough for Junghwan? What does Junghwan see in Inhong that Jeongwoo does not have? Is it because of his ugly crooked teeth? Or is it because he refused to have intercourse with him? Yeah, he really does not know, because Junghwan did not even explain things properly earlier and just left him crying all alone in the street.

Jeongwoo always wished for a good and strong relationship that will last for years. He and Junghwan dated for three years and were high school sweethearts, both graduated with honors, and faced the fear of getting in good universities together. Everything that Jeongwoo did was with Junghwan, and everything that Junghwan did was with Jeongwoo. Before, nothing could ever tear them apart, whether it be a vast ocean or a whole forest in the middle of the both of them. As long as they were in love and were reminded by each other's presence, they would be fine and could live out in the world alone.

However, some things do have endings, and their relationship ended just a few hours earlier.

Now, Jeongwoo's wish is to have a relationship like his friends', Yoonbin and Yeongue's - exactly like his past relationship with Junghwan, but everlasting. They both have been in love with each other for years, starting in tenth grade when they were dared to kiss each other on the cheek, only to be found kissing in the music room three weeks later. No one expected them to last for a year, but they did, and even lasted for six years. Now that they are both twenty-one, they get to live with each other in an apartment near their universities and spend the rest of their lives together.

Jeongwoo huffs. He really does not know anymore. Love is so complicated.

Jealousy getting to him once again, he puffs his cheeks, then closes his eyes to rest. It's obvious that he had been crying because of the evident marks under his eyes, so he does his best to hide them from the customers, although he's positive that no one really cares. Remembering Junghwan's harsh words, he suddenly feels insecure and hides them even more, afraid that he would look ugly and weird in front of these strangers.

He feels around the marbled counter for his shot glass and drinks the remaining content once he gets ahold of it. Suddenly, someone clears their throat, which makes Jeongwoo open his eyes out of curiosity.

"You know, if you keep on drinking that, you will actually pass out," the bartender chimes from across the counter. Jeongwoo looks up at him and rolls his eyes, then puts his attention back on the empty shot glass in front of him.