Satan's Secretary(Mishaan)

Chapter-11

BAM! BAM! BAM!

Ruhaan smashed his feast in the wall. Thrice. His knuckles were cracked and blood started oozing from them, but he didn't care. He was so mad at himself. What the hell was he thinking!! You weren't! He reminded himself. Yes, he wasn't thinking, it was like someone else had taken possession of his mind and body. How could he do that. If it weren't for the noise outside, he would've taken her there. Against the freaking wall!

No, he can't let her affect him like that. He WON'T. It seemed, she had the ability to push his every buttons! She was all he thought about these days and seeing her with that simpleton asshole had cracked something in him. He had to be with her in that moment and when she called him despicable for HIM, he lost it. He didn't know what he was doing, kissing the hell out of her, was, all that mattered in that moment.

But that's it. He won't let that happen again. He won't let the history repeat itself. He wasn't weak like his father. No. He won't let anyone break his heart again. Once was enough! He had seen his father suffering, hurting every single day. He won't become like him. He still remembered that day clearly.

His parents were arguing again, not that it was some news to him. Basically his mother was shouting and his father was listening, like he always did. He couldn't understand much, his 10 years old mind couldn't really processed what exactly she was shouting about, except that she wasn't happy and his father, Raghav Rajvanshi, couldn't satisfy her. Ruhaan didn't really understand what that meant, for they were the richest people in the town and they had everything. In fact his mother had the most expensive jewelry, he had heard her boasting about it in her kitty party. Why wasn't she satisfied then? He asked himself.

"I'm divorcing you. That's it" Ruhaan heard his mother say.

"If that's what you want, but you won't get a penny from me. Be warned, Nandini" his father said.

"Honey, I get what I want. You just wait n watch" she said and Ruhaan heard the footsteps coming out of the room, he hastily retreated from the door, where he was trying to eavesdrop. His mother saw him and paused for a second.

"Where are you going, mom?" He asked nervously

"Don't be such a baby Ruhaan, and I'm not your mother, your father adopted you because I didn't want to spoil my figure" she said so callously, not caring one bit that what effect it'd leave on his still child heart. 

But Ruhaan wasn't listening to her anymore, he had stopped listening after the word adopted came. She pushed him aside and went her way. Tears were streaming down his face but he understood. Finally he understood, why his mother was not like his friends' mothers. He understood now, why she never fed him, why she never sang any lullabies when he was scared sleeping alone, why she never came to his PTA meetings. He understood everything. But he couldn't stop his young heart from breaking, for he had hoped, he had always hoped that if only he were a good boy and never made any mischief and behaved exactly like his mother wanted him to, then she will love him. He was starving for her love and now? Now he didn't even have anything to hope for, because he DID NOT have a mother, ever!

Ruhan came back to present and wiped the tears, he didn't know he possessed anymore. He had never cried after that incident. But today, 22 years later, he found that he still, had those tears left. No, this time he won't let anyone do that to him, he vowed. But destiny never tells it's plans, does it?