Is it love, or just lonely?

Chapter 30

While the nurse was busy trying to calm down Ryan's father who was still yelling. Andy looked at rye and rye looked at his father. Tears were running down his face. 'He wasn't always like this.' Ryan whispered still looking at his father. Andy looked at Ryan and he looked back. When Andy saw his eyes they just looked broken. 'I had a bigger brother and two younger brothers, twin actually.' He stopped talking and swallowed. 'And... And..' he stutter a little and then continued. 'And then one day my brother got in a massive fight with my father when we heard my mother was sick. They both probably just needed to let out their frustration and fear but it crossed a line. My brother grabbed his keys and got in his car, but my little brothers were in the garden and wanted to join him. So the three of them got in the car and drove away. I was at my room, in the old house we all had our own room, so I didn't really noticed what was going on. If I knew, I would have got in the car with them for sure.' Ryans whole body shivered and he looked pale. 'I looked out the window and saw them drove away.... that was the last time I ever saw them.' He swallowed and looked down, his tears dropped on the ground. Some tears fell on his red nike shoes  and rolled over the shoes on the ground. Andy had tears on his face now too, he had always been the pretty emotional kid. 'Did they...' Andy started but Ryan ended his sentence. 'Crash? I don't know...I don't fucking know. I'm not even sure if they are still alive.' Andy sighted and gave Ryan a huge hug, Ryan wrapped his arms around Andy and put his face in his neck. Andy could feel ryans warm tears dropping in his shirt. 'Its all going to be fine, I promise.' Andy whispered and put his face in Ryan's neck. The father stopped yelling and the nurse walked out of the room. 'What were you both doing here?!' She said after looking a bit disgusted too Andy and rye hugging. 'He's my father and I wanted to check on him that's all we'll go now.' He rolled with his eyes and gave her a disgusting look back. He kissed Andy quickly on his lips and grabbed his hand. Then he walked away with his chin up, showing he didn't care about her. Andy smirked, it was funny how Ryan just didn't care about what people would think about us. He felt kind of guilty for being such an asshole earlier and while they walked down the stairs too the second floor he tried to apologize but before he could say anything else then: 'I'm..' Ryan already told him it wasn't his fault. 'But it is Ryan, you care about me and I should appreciate that...' 'That's true.'  he looked back and smiled. They walked to Ryan's room and Ryan closed the door. Andy was standing by the window.

Andy: 'Why were you looking out the window for so long.'

Ryan: 'We used to do that every full moon. With my family I mean.'

Andy gave him a sweet smile: 'That's really cute actually.'

Ryan: 'I still do it, no one knows. I don't want everyone to know.'

Andy: 'I know it now.'

Ryan: 'You're not everyone.'

Andy: 'That's right, I'm your boyfriend.' He smiled as wide as he could and then they both started laughing.
Ryan walked up to Andy put his hands on his waist and looked at Andy. Then Ryan pushed him against the wall and started kissing him. Andy could feel ryans body against his and felt happy. He always wondered if Ryan actually cared about him but now, he didn't knew why, he just knew Ryan loved him. And he loved Ryan.
When Andy felt he was getting a boner he pushed Ryan away, he still felt awkward for that. Ryan immediately realized why Andy did that and smirked 'You know it's a compliment right.' Andy rolled his eyes playfully. Ryan carefully came closer to Andy again but Andy put his hand on his chest and pushed him back. But this time he kept pushing until they fell on the bed. Andy was on top now but really had no idea what to do so Ryan took over and rolled Andy on the bed. When Ryan came under Andy's shirt again he swallowed, he had forgotten about Andy's skinny body. Andy looked a bit scared and shameful to Ryan. 'I'm sorry.' Ryan said, 'I promised I wouldn't.'
'No, no, I get it.' Andy said and closed his eyes.
Ryan sighted and carefully asked: 'Do you want to.... stop..?'
'No, I don't. But I mean if you want to I get it.' Andy bit his lip after saying this, hoping he didn't say the wrong thing. Ryan nodded 'You really think I would already have enough of you? I'll never have enough from you.' They smiled and Andy gave Ryan another kiss.