After what dianne told me about her son, I decided I would see if she wanted to visit his grave. "Morning beautiful" dianne was slowly waking up. "Morning Suggy", I loved it when she called me that. "I was wondering if you wanted to visit kayden's grave?". Her eyes filled with tears, I knew this was hard for di but I think it's for the best. "I think i need to joe but the girls are coming to".
About the girls they were laying on their playing mat so I decided to get them changed.
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I know they are 2 months old but they were small for there age I'm guessing they get there height from dianne.
Diane's POV:
See I don't know why but I was really worried to go and see kaydens grave, I know he passed away years ago but that was the first death that I had to spend endless days and nights grieving and for my own son as well. But I had to be strong for the girls so I agreed to go to my sons grave. I decided to get changed into some comfy clothes and brush my hair.
As soon as we got there I broke down in tears as joe wrapped his arms around me for comfort. "i..I just want him back joe".
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Joes POV:
I hated to see dianne soo upset. "I know and we will all miss him". We decided to go back home and chill out. I made dianne and the girls dinner and scrolled through Instagram. Until I heard dianne scream. I ran upstairs and saw dianne on the floor with blood all over her hands. "Di what's happened!!!?" She slowly looked up but didn't say anything. "Have you cut yourself?" I suddenly knew that she had cut herself. "I'm sorry joe it's just I'm feeling so down with Jayden not being around and there is something else that I didn't tell you". "What is it dianne please tell me". "Ok well ever since Anthony raped me I keep having flashbacks which causes me to have mini panic attack and I thought they would go but they keep coming back and i don't know what to do anymore that's why I cut myself but I didn't think it would be this bad". I can't believe she never told me any of this. I brought her closer to me and hugged her for what felt like hours. She started breathing heavier and was crying more. I didn't k is what to do do I text Amy hoping she would know what to do.
J: hey Amy I need your help. A: yeah what's up joe. J: it's dianne she is having a panic attack and had just self harmed and I don't know what to do. A: oh shit.. is she ok? J:No she is crying her poor eyes out. A:right ok I'm coming over. J:ok thank u.
" hey di calm down please look Amy is coming over ok?" Her hand gripped more tighter round my waist as she was shaking. A: Hey joe I'm here where are you. J:I'm upstairs in our bathroom. A: ok I'm coming up right now. "Hey di it's me Amy." After awhile dianne started to slow down so I decided to check in Jade and Aria.
Dianne POV:
I don't know why I started crying but Amy was really helping as she rubbed circles on my back, hugging me and of course she started dancing which made me laugh. She always knew how to cheer me up. We have known each other since year 1 and have never argued since. Also she is the only girl who I trust apart from my mum and joe of course.
I decided to clear myself up as Amy wrapped a bandage around my hand. I felt guilty as I left joe to put up with me and my problems but I am happy I have him as my soulmate and a boyfriend. Amy and I decided to go downstairs and I asked joe if Amy could eat with us. As I needed to pay her back for supporting me. After we had all eaten Any soon left leaving Joe and I to chill.
Joe took the girls up to bed and i drank a cup of tea. Hoping tomorrow would be a better day.
