Mobile legends Randomness [On Going]

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Guys I need a break I'm not doing well. I am broken. Im not who I am supposed to be. I want my nightmare to end. I want to end my suffering. I want to be dead but the tiny happy things are making me stop ending my nightmare. It may sound of one heroes quote but...... save me from the nightmare called life... Im broken always been ever since elementary I was never been myself. I was forced to do things that is againts my own will. This does not mean I wont continue this but It may take a while for me to be okay to be me..... to be free...... I wanted to be dead but I cant it will only make me regret doing things more I want to die but I cant leave my mother shes all I have left... as for my so called friends in real life. I dont have any. Im hated I know it from the way they treated me from the way they talk to me. They know they dont like me. 1st grade of elementary I was bullied, hated, called a freak, my classmates hurt me for fun and I was.... nvm If you want to know the other one pm me. I dont want to be dead yet..... the person will kill me if they know I let everybody know what that person did to me. That person gave me a threat If someone knew. But for once I dont care if he will kill me or let me suffer. 2nd grade: it gone worse from 5 bullies to 15 bullies they hated me for what I am they made mg life a living hell... lets skip to my 4th grade I thought I can have a friend  at 4th grade because there was 2 new students but I treated them so kindly but months passed they had confidence.. confidence to bully me confidence to hurt me. Im such a mess. It made me think that I was a regret. From 4th grade until 6th grade They did that to me I was kinda my routine: wake up bath eat be bullied learn bullied lunch bullied learn bullied go home then repeat. Until one day I was in 7th grade..... from private to public. From less to many from kindness to regret. They all hate me they didnt even respect me once in in that school year I dont know why am I letting you know that Im depressed but some people soften seeing me and said to me that "how can you do this even bullied you can still smile and forgive" well my answer about that is " a smile can hide thousands of secrets" well I know that I just wasted your time to let you read this but little did you know that the pinch of happenes will be gone if my mom and my phone is gone. Im very very sorry to waste your time reading what a freak, a regret's life. For the ones ive not said sorry to Im sorry. Im just a pain, just a regret. Well if one of you so called friends are reading this. Its your time to insault me personally and whatever you say to me I dont give a fuck about it