Take Two | jensoo

Chapter Ten

Jisoo entered her apartment with a million feelings running through her and all of them were bad. She was angry, upset, sad, embarrassed, and frustrated. Not to mention she felt bad that she pretty much stole a cab from some girl. Jisoo could only imagine the reaction that stranger had when she pulled her out of the way so she can get into the waiting taxi herself. She also couldn't get the image of Jennie running out of the restaurant looking for her as the taxi driver drove away.

The night did not go the way Jisoo expected. She had no idea why she snapped at Jennie the way she did. She just wanted a perfect night with the girl of her dreams. Instead, her past kept coming back to remind her how not so perfect her high school life was.

It's not like Jennie knew how bad it was for me because I refuse to tell her. But she doesn't need to know that about me. Why does she keep bringing it up? What does she expect from me? To admit I was the girl she saw every Friday? What would that give her?

Jisoo groaned in frustration as she made her way to her bedroom. She threw herself face first onto pillows and squeezed them around her head. She hadn't felt this shitty since high school. One incident seem to creep in her mind as Jisoo thought about the events of the night.

She had stomped into the courtyard with tears falling down her face. They had a substitute for English class that day, and of course he had asked her to read a stanza out loud from the poem they were studying. She stuttered her whole way through and the teacher didn't know exactly whether to ask her to stop or let her finish. Of course he chose the latter, and Jisoo stuttered through the entire thing while listening to not so discrete snickers from her class.

When she was done, Jisoo bit her lip so hard from trying not to cry that she tasted blood. The teacher asked someone else to read the next stanza and of course he chose one of the biggest assholes. The asshole started to read the poem with a stutter just to mock Jisoo. He earned laughs from the class but fortunately the substitute had the brains to stop him. Jisoo looked down the remainder of the class trying her hardest not to cry. She felt like she was going to explode from the hurt and embarrassment.

She almost considered not going to the courtyard because she didn't want Jennie seeing her in this state. But seeing her would make her day a little better even if were just a second. Jisoo was pulling violently at the grass blades when Jennie arrived. The tears had stopped but there were still remnants on her face. She could feel Jennie watching her from her spot by the oak tree so Jisoo avoided her gaze the entire time.

"I know that they never mow this area, but I think ripping out the grass would make it all uneven."

Jisoo looked up briefly and saw Jennie smiling at her. Just smiling. It wasn't a sympathetic smile or a pity smile, it was just a smile. The same smile Jennie has been giving her since the first time she sat down in this courtyard.

Jisoo managed a weak smile in return. "I-I don't like lo-long grass."

"Yeah, me neither. They itch," she said scrunching up her face. Jisoo laughed while still absently picking at the grass. "You should keeping going though, this courtyard is pretty big and there's a lot of grass."

Jisoo suddenly felt a thousand times better. The fact that Jennie never even brought up the elephant in the room just made her fall that much in love with her.

"Ugh, I'm such an idiot," Jisoo told her room as the memory faded. She honestly didn't mean to snap at Jennie, but she kept four years of constant teasing and being ignored all bottled up and it just happened to come out that night. It also hurt when Jennie said that Jisoo didn't know her, because she always felt like she did.

She didn't mean it, you just attacked her, and of course she was going to get defensive. Jisoo, you're an idiot. She probably thinks you're one too. How can I face her again?