Dejection

Heartbreak

I loved the way you looked at me when we first met
I loved how you treated me
I loved the person you used to be
I loved seeing you an just starring at you
Mostly I loved your smile
That smile that caused me so much pain
It was the most beautiful thing I've ever seen in my life
That smile

Time flew by and that smile changed
It became so much colder
It didn't seem happy anymore
That smile was gone and so were you

The wrinkles you had when you smiled, the most perfect thing for me, it was gone

I hated when you didn't text me
I hated you lies
I hated how you changed
I hated your new friends
I hated how you never said you love me back
I hated when you looked at me as if you don't feel anything for me anymore

In the end I'm just human
I feel, I cry, I smile, I hope, I pray, I eat, I sleep
But that didn't matter to you anymore
You wanted to be famous and known again
So you pushed me away like a toy
Didn't cared about my feelings
About my life
About me
The person that has been on your side from the beginning no matter what happened
I was always there for you and I was the first and only one you had

You said things
Hurted me
Left me alone after promising you'll always be on my side

I started to become depressed and lost myself
I lost beliefs in everything and just wanted to die
But I still loved that smile...
I always somehow know about your life and see how your new life has become
The new girls
The new look
The new unfamiliar smile
The new clothes
The new friends

Why them?
Tell me
What do they give you that I didn't
What do they have that I haven't
Do you think the new girls are prettier than me?

I know I can make you so much happier
I know it didn't worked out that well last time
But everyone deserves a second chance

Our paths divided
We had the same birthmark on the same shoulders but I recognised my birthmark changed
Does that mean we're not soulmates anymore?

Whatever happens doesn't mean I don't love you anymore
So how did you stop to feel something for me
I still believe in us and that our relationship deserved better

So tell me why them?
I gave you everything I had
I have you everything I could afford
I tried to make you happy every time I saw you
I enjoyed seeing your beautiful smile
I stayed awake for you even if it meant that I could just sleep for 1 minute
I made sure you always felt loved and gifted you
You were my first priority

After all how can you just replace me and leave me alone

I don't believe in love anymore
Or in myself
I just want you to come back and tell me you love me

Because I will always love you...