The Sweet Song

Depressed

Reading our messages to one another
Still wanna scream at you
Break down from the words I put on you
I don't love you
Yet I do
It's a common fight
Don't know if I should give up or just die
Everyone's pushing down on me
Can't say a word because then there are chains
Put on me
I can't escape
Just put duck tape over my mouth
Don't let me make a sound
"I'm sorry"
Those words are supposed to fix everything you've done
Sexual insecurities eat at me
My hands on your body bring tears to me
I wanna scream
Things that I didn't wanna do
But had to
To keep you close to me
With all that in my head
My grandpas laying on his death bed
But I'm not allowed to cry
Goddamn this life is one big lie
Little girls hold your tears
This isn't your place to cry
That's at home all alone
Holding your favorite stuffed toy
Tears staining your pillow
I'm done
I can't take it
I'm confident as hell but now I'm shakin
Slit my wrists
Don't let people see
This is the end for me