Harry Styles imagines (completed)

(bonus) #53 anxiety

(Y/n's pov)

i sighed as i ran my shaky hands over my new dress my anxiety starting at the thought of what was going to happen. Harry and i were going out to hang with the boys and to say i was scared would be understatement. i know your thinking how could you be so scared  its just the boys well my whole life I've been like this. i have always been scared of going out and being around people, i have very bad social anxiety. I've gone to therapists and I've been put on many different medicine and I've gotten better over the years but i still can't go out freely but Harry had told me how much he wanted me to go and so i am going to try my hardest for him.

"don't have to come if you don't feel like your ready love"Harry spoke softly as he wrapped his arms me from behind and grabs my shaky hands in his. i shake my head and relax into his touch "no i want to do this for you, plus its the boys" he sighs and nods "okay kitten just know i'll be there if you need me"i nod and turn around and softly give him a kiss on the lips.

 we kiss for a while then we pull away and then make our way downstairs and to the car. on the way to the restaurant the anxiety started to hit me again but stronger. my knee stared to bounce up and down and my nails went into the fabric of my dress tightly "chill out woman you'll be fine"Harry huff/growls as his eyes focus on the road. my heart drops and i try my best not to let the tears spill over not wanting to make Harry more upset.

once we had gonna to the restaurant, i had made a small hole in my dress and red marks on the palms of my hands. Harry opened my door then started walking to the restaurant saying nothing to me. i quickly got out and followed behind him. i stayed behind him as we were lead to our table. "Harry long time no see"i hear Louis say "hey Lou hey Liam hey Niall"Harry says smiling and giving each of them a hug. i slowly peak out behind him and wave at the boys they all smile and Niall gives me a small hug. once we all sat down the boys started talking about how things are and what has been going on in each of their lives.

i sat quietly in the corner not knowing what to say and being to anxious to even try. after an hour i slowly got up to go to the bathroom, but just as i was turning to leave the table i ran into a waiter making him drop all of what he was holding making a mess and an even bigger noise. everyone ones head turned to me and Harry stood up flaming mad.

"what the hell did you do?!"he yells making me jump "i-i-i-i'm s-s-sorry i-i-i"tears filled my eyes as he glared at me how could you "embarrass me here in front of the boy! what is wrong with you and stop stuttering your just making this all worse, you know what maybe you should just go home your no help here!"he continues to yell and by this time tears are rolling down my cheeks. "i-if thats what you w-want"i whispered "i'll um see you boys l-later.. i'm really sorry about all this" i said as calmly as i could as i backed away from him and ran out of the building.

i called my sister and she picked me up ten minutes later and took me home.

(Harry's pov)

i frowned and growled as i sat back down at the table the boy all looking at me as if i had just killed someone "what in the bloody hell was that"Louis was to first one to say something. "what do you mean"i looked at him confused "that! you going off on your poor girlfriend who's been scared to death since the moment you both walked in! she didn't mean to run into the waiter mate" he says angrily and suddenly what i had done hits me. "i fucked up" all the boys nod "thats a understatement"Liam scuffs crossing his arms and glaring at me. "go after her you stupid!"Niall half yells. "i'll um talk to you guys later"i say getting up and leaving before they could say anymore.

i picked up flowers and chocolates and well just a shit ton of things that i was hoping would make up for what i had done. once i had gotten home and through the door, i saw everything was dark but her things were on the couch so i knew she was here. i put everything down and took off my shoes and coat then ran upstairs where i saw her curled up in my t-shirt and sleeping soundly on my side of the bed with my pillow tightly held in her arms.

i sighed as i walked closer to her and  i saw the tear stains on her cheeks. "i'm so sorry lovie"i whispered as i crawled in next to her and wrapped her up in my arms, she only whimpered and nodded slowly as she turned around and cuddled close to my chest. "s'ok"she mumbled and held onto me tightly. i kissed the top or her head and just cuddled her. after a while i fell asleep knowing that in the morning i would have my work cut out for me.

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this was requested be lollieb545 i hope you liked it.

updated 5/14/19 word count 948 by Zalla m