The story of us // Diego Martir// Bankrolhayden

Chapter 21: The background behind y/n

Hayden and I are better he reassured me that he was not going anywhere not matter how many times that video get's posted with the captions like that one. I am so grateful to have Hayden in my life he has loved and cared for me like no other it's amazing how warm my heart get's when I am around him. 

My life hasn't been all that great I have had a fairly rough past, when I was younger my mom and dad always slip then made up. Now you couldn't tell it because it's gotten better but back then it was always so hard to deal with especially being a kid and not being able to understand what was going on or happening in my life. All the changes were hard but I somehow got through them. I went every other weekend jumping back and forth from my mom's house to my dad's house. my mom had gotten a new boyfriend and I wasn't too fond of him at first but then I warmed up to him and everything was okay. then my dad got a new girlfriend and I really honestly didn't like her at all I mean yes we had some day's where we were like the best of friends but there were more bad day's than good days. 

my parents finally knew that it was better if they had just stayed together because nothing they tried worked they were both still on each other's minds like crazy there was one time my mom and her boyfriend got into a argument and my mom screamed my dad's name instead of his. it only made things worse between them so he left and it was just me and my mom from that day forward. my dad and his girlfriend had a falling out when he found out that she was on drugs and then he kicked her out. I never really understood why these things were happening. each time they happened it was a new place and a new life. I didn't want to believe that things would only get worse and so I didn't and they didn't either. eventually thing's started getting better and better each day but it still didn't erase what happened before hand or all of the things that happened before they had gotten back together. 

I had nobody to talk to honestly so I just kept everything closed up it had gotten worse in 2017 they broke up again and left me stranded all alone while they were each on business trips. my friends looked at it like a invitation to come over whenever they wanted but I didn't want anyone near me so I told them I was staying by myself for the whole time they were gone. they never questioned anything I just wasn't in the mood to hang out that's how they all looked at it. truth is I was so depressed I did self harm and honestly it was easy to deal with because my mom and dad always stayed on business trips so they never suspected a thing. 

I remember listening to nice for what by drake in my room all the time to get my mind off of a lot of things and I would watch little remix's from different people. I didn't know who I all followed on my Instagram so when I went on there and seen this nice for what remix that had gone viral I scrolled passed it a few times but never stopped to watch it then there was this one page that had posted the kids Instagram under the video so I stopped and watched it and it was actually fire so I clicked on his at and followed him. when I would get really depressed I would watch it well then I went on you tube and I had subscribed to world star along time ago so when I seen that they had posted a new video I clicked on it. The title was "29 - Bankrolhayden" I didn't know who this kid was or even how old he was at the time so I was watching the video and it was amazing I fell in love with the song and couldn't stop singing it for that whole day it was crazy. I could relate to that song a lot mainly because November 29th of 201 I was also in a crash. 

November 29th 2017 me and my friends were coming home from the mall when a Toyota truck hit us going 6 over the speed limit. I didn't know what to do I was knocked out cold when I finally woke up I was in the hospital and none of my friends were there with me. I didn't know what to say, think or do I barely knew what had happened so when I asked the nurse she went and got the doctor so he could explain everything to me. 

I was so terrified but I was okay I wasn't seriously injured which was good but the thing about me being knocked out cold is still terrifying I couldn't think about anything else but that other than the though of losing my life which could have happened if it was worse than what it could have been. everything had my brain messed up so after the accident I wrote a song about everything I have went through and all of the pain that I felt. I just wrote I never recorded them nor did others hear them unless they were really close to me. 

My parents supported what I was doing to cope I even had people tell me that I needed to put out my songs but the thought of all the hate I would get and the people who would dislike it was too much for me to bare I couldn't ever think of me ever being famous because I didn't want to be a famous rapper I wanted to be famous for changing the lives of others and helping them through tough times.