if only

isnt that lame.

i opened my eyes from sleep to darkness. i glance at my clock and it reads 3:00AM in bright red letters. the first time tonight ive woken up was at midnight, my nightly routine.

"here we go" i mutter to myself . 

i get up and slowly walk to my cd player turning on the Marshall Mathers LP 2. no, it might not be the most soothing thing to sleep with but it stops my mind from racing and thats all i care about. i plop back into bed and listen to 6 songs before getting back to sleep. 

"WHERE DID I GO WRONG, I LOST A FRIEND. SOMEWHERE ALONG IN THE BITTERNESS AND----"

that my friends, is what i woke up to aka my ring tone which has been playing for the past hour because hailey has been calling me. i can bet that she will be walking in my house claiming shes home in at least 5 minutes. she has been doing this since the beginning of grade 8 and shes not going to stop any time soon.  she calls and calls and calls then 2 seconds later she is in my room. 

"IM HOMEEE" hailey calls from downstairs and i run down the stairs in my hot pink short shorts and a pale blue tank top. 

"what is the point of calling if you are  just going to come here anyway?" i wondered aloud

"being polite.  now i hear that some guy is going to be joining your darts leage. " 

"do you know what this guy looks like and his age?" i ask while falling on the couch

"not yet, but i will. he goes to Chipman Long."she said falling on me

"he goes to the public school down the street? im  not even going to ask how you know that." 

we both laughed

"so whats on netflix these days?" she asked

"the same thing there was yesterday, and the day before, and the day before that day and probably the same as the day before that too ! " i said.

"well. isnt that lame." she exclaims while getting up and heading to my kitchen.

"whatever you are getting, bring me some." i yell

hailey comes back with 2 slices of last night's cold pizza

"here, this is all you have that i dont find remotely yucky" she says 

"im putting on Easy A." i say, doing exactly that

"we've watched that like 2149,000 times, can we watch something else? " hailey begs, even though she knows that it wont happen

"awh, its so cute that you try" i whisper.

we sat on my couch and ate our  cold pizza for 92 minutes. yes, it was exactly 92 minutes because thats how long my favourite movie, Easy A, is.

"Emma Stone is the ruler of my heart, to be honest" 

"you have said that line around 76 times, i got it the second. oh, that and 'zac efron stars as the most important role in your heart' trust me, i know " hailey rolls her eyes

"you know you love me" i say enthusiastically 

"yes, and you're lucky i do" she says

just then there was a loud knock on the door, 

i get up and go open the door to a very angry kursty

"bitch, why the fuck are you not answering your phone?!?" she screams

"its upstairs??" i say, apologeticailly.

she walks in and sits beside hailey, almost instantly they start bickering over the next movie. 

"just put on one of those stupid movies alice always talks about and shut it. i need to hear kaycie and youre being way too loud for stupid highschoolers "alison yells from her room. 

"your younger sister is mean" hailey whispers

alison is my younger sister. shes an annoying, socail buttcrack who is the exact oppisite from me and shes in the 7th grade which means shes also a know-it-all. alison has the figure of a pear and shes a 'dumb blonde' so i guess you can say shes cliche af. 

her friend kaycie is an odd ball. they do absolutely everything together and that usually includes bugging me. kaycie is small and full of energy.

"MY MOVIES ARE NOT STUPID, YOU ARE AND YOU CANT TELL MY FRIENDS WHAT TO DO,YOU LAME-O" i screamed back 

this is the type of rivalry that alison and i have, a terrible one.

kursty put on the first movie that she saw which happened to be 'The Breakfast Club' just to make sure alison didnt answer.

"you know that you just came up with an answer that most 5 year olds could conjure up with, right?" kursty said with laughter in her voice

"yes, im aware." i said trying to act serious

hailey suddenly bursts into a laughing fit followed by kursty and i

this was as close to happy as i can be