FAN CHENGCHENG MARRY ME~ CHENGSTIN | COMPLETED

4-Apology

Chengcheng P.O.V

Ive been one to get up from a daydream so quickly but as soon as justins name is mentioned immediately im alert. I care for him maybe too much at times.

Zhengting was always one to exaggerate. Especially when it came to his sexuality. But when i saw justin laying on the rooftop my heart dropped six feet under and my mind clung to the worst outcome of this situation. I held him in my arms holding back tears of fear and regret.

We rushed him to the hospital. Words i couldnt manage. Positivity left me all in one. My life felt crushed. My heart sunken.

He was in the hospital room for hours. My mind racing and giving up racing then giving up. Thoughts bullied my brain. Hitting it back and forth. Back and forth.

I should of told him how much he neant to me

How much i wanted a family

How much i cared for him

How much i think about him

How much i love him.

How much i need him in my life.

Its ruined

Without him

Everythings ruined...

" You can see him now"

The news hit my heart with joy and relief losing Justin would be my breaking point. As i walked in a small smile appeared on his beautiful baby face. The other NEX7 guys waited outside for a monent to give me a chance with justin alone.

"Hey honey"

He giggled slightly

"Hey gorgeous"

I reply sitting beside him

His hand intertwined with mine and i couldnt be happier. Its been 4 years almost 5 and i cant imagine my life without this boy.

"Im sorry i couldnt be there for you"

Its ok chengcheng honey im still alive you have nothing to be sorry for

I just cant help but feel like we've been distant lately i should of been there im so-

I was interrupted with an unexpected kiss. A smile crept up on both our faces as he pulled away.

"Its the only way to get you to shut up nowadays"

The laugh we both shared was the most joyful time i had since the walk in the park with justin almost a month ago now.

But we forgave eachother for being distant.

And the other boys walked in joyfully finally seeing smiles upon our faces.

Its been a while but ill show justin how much he means to me. hes literally....

Everything