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[Chapter 7]

[this chapter may be triggering to some readers so read at your own risk]

It was a simple mistake, which gave big results.

Yoongi had gotten a notification that one of his friends, Jihoon had tweeted something on twitter. He went to look at it and his finger slipped making him back out of the tweet onto the home page. He immediately saw the notifications of his own page, or the main page all members use. There was a comment that stood out, the tweet had mentioned the page and he upon further attention; he saw it was about him. He hesitated, he knew he wasn't suppose to look at anything that  focused on him, most of the time it's bad news.

Sadly Yoongi didn't listen to his own advice and read the post.

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@BTS_twt
Don't you think Suga should leave the group, he doesn't even do anything to help. All he is is a cold and fat pig.
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Yoongi shrugged it off, all the members got haters that sent this stuff all day everyday. It was normal, and especially after years of being in this workplace you get used to it, he knew that he could easily find nice posts about him. He continued to scroll down, seeing more posts about the members, until he came to another post about him.

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@BTS_twt
When is Suga going to get past his "dark" and "painful" past and move forward. All his songs are literally the same and it's getting annoying.
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Ouch, that one hurt him. He knew he shouldn't have given it more thought about it, but now that he heard someone say it he couldn't help but think to himself, 'what if they're right? what if my songs are annoying?' He blinked the stinging of his eyes away and continued searching, it seemed the more he scrolled the more posts seemed to be about him and all were negative.

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@BTS_twt
Is it just me or is Yoongi getting fatter every time we see him, go on a diet Min Yoongi, nobody else looks like that!
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Yoongi stopped scrolling, he moved his hand off his lap and set his phone down beside him. He went to his bedroom to look at the full body mirror he had. Lifting up his shirt and took a look at his body. More importantly his stomach, he saw what the person was talking about, instead of abs or a toned stomach, Yoongi had a soft, squishy stomach, definitely not fit for kpop star, escpecially one in bts. They had such high demands to follow, and Yoongi couldn't keep down his weight to where it needed to be.

He shook his head, he couldn't do anything about it until dinner, maybe eat less tonight then start on a diet tomorrow, maybe ask Jeongguk hyung to take him to the gym that week. Letting go of his shirt, he walked back into the living room, he stared at his phone. He knew he shouldn't but he couldn't help it, the mean comments were there, but it made him need to know what else was wrong with him.

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@BTS_twt
Suga is just holding down bts. He is talentless, he can't sing, rap, dance or even be nice to his Hyungs. He is always frowning and even slaps his Hyung's, the boys don't have time for this, focus on being idols and leave Suga behind.
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That was the last straw for Yoongi, he knew he wasn't the most friendly person in the world, he knew he couldn't smile as bright as Hoseok Hyung, or be as nice as Jimin Hyung, he couldn't be helpful like Seokjin Hyung, nor be smart and informal like Namjoon Hyung, he couldn't make people laugh like Taehyung Hyung, he wasn't good at anything like Jeongguk Hyung, he could do anything in the world.

Who was Min Yoongi, he knew that bts could be perfect without him, in fact he knew that they could reach greater heights and accomplishments without him. Why was Min Yoongi here, he did nothing to help his Hyungs, all he did was frown and be disrespectful towards them, he didn't deserve them, and they didn't deserve being stuck with Yoongi.