Brooklyn
I have been going to class the same as always. 15 minutes early every class. But I go home right after. Ambers dads funeral is on Saturday which is in two days. It has been 2 weeks since he died and she is still devastated. She hasn't been going to teach her class. She has been sleeping in a lot. She is starting to worry me.
" Babe, I'm going to class" I say. I have been taking the kids to daycare right before class causing me to have to wake up early.
I dropped the kiddos off and headed to class. When I got there Professor Merlo was already there. I got my stuff out and started on my notes.
" Good morning Brooklyn" She said.
" Good morning" I said. Still working on my notes.
" Are you ok? " she asked.
" I'm hungry but other than that I'm fine" I replied.
She stood up and brought me over a McDonald's smoothie and a bag of gummy bears.
" I had a feeling you were going to be. You need to start eating. You will get an eating disorder if you don't start eating." She said after handing it to me.
" I am trying really hard" I said. I am holding back the tears as well as I can right now.
" I understand. You guys just lost someone important to you." She replied. I was looking down at my paper so she squatted down next to me.
" I am trying to keep my routine going. But I have to add bringing the boys to daycare into the mix." I said. I couldn't hold the tears back anymore. " I'm trying really hard to make things easier for Amber."
" and it's effecting your eating patterns?" She asked. All I can do is nod. " It's ok to feel this way."
I wipe my tears and start working again. " But I'm gonna push through and I'll be fine." I say.
At the end of the day I went straight home. Well except to stop at the store to get groceries and gummy bears. I grabbed the boys on the way home.
"Babe! We're home!" I yelled. I put a the groceries on the counter then went to turn on the tv for the boys. I went back to the kitchen and grabbed one of the bags of gummy bears. I walked upstairs. I walked in our room to find her asleep.
" Babe?" I whispered. No response. So I just laid down next to her and wrapped my arms around her. I needed make her feel comforted. She was hurting. I love her and I don't want to see her hurting. I laid there for about 20 minutes then fell asleep.
" Babe" I hear. Someone was shaking me. I opened my eyes. My arms were still wrapped around her. " I love you" She said.
" I love you too" I mumbled," how are you feeling"
" Safe, Protected, Loved, Sad." She replied.
" I'm gonna call my mom and see if she can watch the kiddos" I said. I'm was about to get up when Amber grabbed my arm.
" Don't leave" She said.
" At least let me get my phone off my bedside table." I said. I rolled over and grabbed my phone. I turned it on and called my mom.
" Hey babygirl" She said.
" Hi mom" I replied, " will you come pick the kiddos up and watch them for the next two or so weeks."
" Of course baby" She said.
" Thank you" I said and then hung up.
About thirty minutes later my mom showed up and picked up the boys. We said our partings and they left. Amber went back upstairs. She has been in that room every day since the incident.
" Amber!" I yelled up to her about 20 minutes later. " get showered and dressed. I'm gonna take you on a surprise date. Which isn't that much of a surprise but whatever."
"Ok" she said and went and got ready.
Amber
I miss him. A lot. He gave me the best childhood and supported me. I'm really sad, but Brooklyn is trying to help. She makes me feel safe and gives me the sliver of happiness that I need. She is taking me out to dinner and then we are going to the movies.
When we got to the movies we took our seats. I'm glad we live in the city cause they have recliners as the seating. She sat to my right so that I could lay my head on her shoulder. During the movie we cuddled. I felt the happiest I have felt in a while.
After the movie we went home. We got in bed and we fell asleep. I wanted to do something special for Brooklyn in the morning so I set an alarm and got up earlier than her. She usually wakes up at 7:30 but had her alarm at 7:15 so she could shower.
I woke up at 6:30 and got in the shower. I was out by 7. I got dressed and went upstairs to make breakfast. I heard her get up about 7:15 and get in the shower. She came down and was ready to go at 8. We ate the bacon and muffins I had made then she went off to class.
