JOURNEY : Back to 300

IV

I'm inside the car while on my way to the army basement. I leave early in the morning and the sun isn't showing yet. I left some notes  to inform them. Probably the harsh thing to do and cruel thing to do to my baby jen.

Fidgeting my fingers, heart beats faster , nervous and anxious start to consume me and my mind is going wild.

"Hey,lisa...let's grab some breakfast first. Your not going to start with an empty stomach right?" My manager said to me.

"Ne...let's go." I get out from the van and we enter the cafe. I take the chocolate bun with hot machiato and my manager just order black coffee and french toast.

We sit at the table near the window. "You're worried aren't you?" He suddenly ask.

Yes it is true. The cruel reality. I can't deny it. Maybe it's just too obvious. "Yeah..just about certain things."

"Like leaving your member without saying goodbye or about the training that you will get?"

"Both....fairly. I just can't stop myself from thinking. What if I failed again? What if they were mad that I left them without a word? Gosh! So many thought in my mind right now!" I said in frustration.

He smile. "Your gonna overcome this. Your a strong person. One of the strongest that I have ever met. Since the day you audition at YG, I know that your gonna to succeed. It's because you never know how to give up. I know that you will do anything to achieve your goal. So don't dissappoint us or your ass are getting beaten up by your members."

I smile and nodded. Yeah,that's right. I never going to give up.

We finished the breakfast and heading towards the army basement.

After fifteen minutes of driving, I'm finally get there. I get my bags and everything I need and walk towards the front gate.

"Show me your identification and the paper you sign up please." The officers command me.

I do everything they ask and he brings me to the women dorm. I was greeted by a scary looking instructor. I feel shivers running down my spine as soon as I look at her.

She walk me towards my room. "Please settle up your things and change into the uniform. Within fifty minutes I want you to get ready and we will go to your first physical test." She said and leave.

I unpacked and arrange my things inside the closet and change into the uniform. It is pretty easy cause I have done this before. I wonder what is going on at home.

-at the blackpink dorm-

Jennie woke up feeling the bed is empty. She sit up and look at the window.

"Ah~ it must have past 10 a.m." she stand up and wash her face. When she came out, she saw a note at the nightstand and pick it up to read it.

Jennie p.o.v

I saw a pink note at the nightstand. Curiosity takes me to that note and I read it.

"My dear Jen, sorry for not saying goodbye. I don't want to say goodbye cause it will make me feel like I'm leaving you and you will feel like I'm walking away. I'm afraid thinking of it. I don't want to wake you up early in the morning while you were having a sound sleep and that will make it harder for me to go cause even you didn't physically holding me but emotionally I know that it's hard for you to let me go and your gonna begging me to stay. So, please take care and I'll be back soon for you my love,Jennie.."

My tears streak down my face. "Meanie Lisa.....how can you leave without saying anything and just wrote some words for me....meanie lisa...you're bad...but I love you and I will wait for you, Lalisa Manoban"

I kiss the note and place it in the drawer. I smile, maybe she's was right after all. I know she didn't like leaving things unsettle and she will do anything to achieve her goal. I can't hold her but I can support her and I know she will come back for me cause our love is strong  and unbreakable.

With that I walk out from the bedroom to have my breakfast. I hope she will be alright there.