The Director • Seo Changbin

04

I decided after what happened with Changbin and my awful decisions that I have had enough human interaction for the rest of the day. So I grab my school bag and plopped down in my office chair.

"Ok! No more thinking about Changbin! Time to plan!"  I really need to organize what I plan to do to start casting for my film. I pull out my notebook, flipping to the next clean page and mark it with a sticky note. I start writing down my thoughts.

TO-DO
1) talk to professor about budget, sets, and equipment
2) visit music and acting department
-ask them about casting help, beg if you have to, there is no pride in this industry!!!
3) talk to other film majors to set up a study/work group
-makes connections!!!
4) calculate budget
5) type up a report give it to professor

I lay down my pencil and stretch, now that I'm productive level 100 I'll allow myself to sleep! I race up to my room and jump into bed trying to embrace unconsciousness...

I was tired, I really was, but now it's 2am and I can't help but stare at my phone resting close to my body. Everything from today flashed in my head, stressing me out more than I honestly needed it to. I'm not that offended being called a hoe, but damn... and it's not an everyday thing, befriending a man whore... and having his friends frame you as a whore also. I don't think he's a bad person but what a way to live! "And why the hell did I flirt and tease him? What if he tried- no! Let's not think of that! Let's sleep! ... I CAN'T just sleep now!"

I groan loudly and grab my phone. I'll just call him nothing wrong with a simple call right? I'll just ask if we're cool.. "Baram it's fucking 2am! You'll wake him up!" I groan more kicking my legs. Why is life so hard? Ya know what fuck it!

I unlock the phone and dial Changbins' number, the line rings thrice before he picks up.

"Uh... h-hello?" He groans on the other side

"I'm sorry if I woke you up... I was just thinking. And I need to talk to you.." I bite my thumb nervously

"No, no it's fine. What's up?" I could hear him shift slightly

"I think... I-uh" I sigh and take in a sharp breath, "I don't think you are any less of a man, I don't know why I teased you... I shouldn't have. And uh, it's totally fine... I mean- I don't think of you any differently because of your past. Everyone has an embarrassing thing they don't want people to know."

"I-uhm- thanks... I appreciate that so much. I thought you'd feel uncomfortable because of it... And I'm sorry I got dramatic before I left. I don't know what I was thinking honestly."

"It's ok... so, we good..?"

"Yeah."

"Good, I don't know what I'd do if I couldn't hear you complain about work!" I smiled

Changbin chuckled, his voice was still raspy from just waking up. Not gonna lie he was kind of alluring right now...

"So.. what're you doing after school?" Changbin asked

"I don't know... probably some cleaning around the apartment."

"How about instead of being a good adult we hang out?" We both giggled

"Sure!"

"Good cuz I would've come over and dragged you out anyways." I could feel myself smiling widely

"Well I'll see you!~"

"Goodnight arcade nerd!"

"Goodnight king of the emos!" We chuckled and I ended the call

I put my phone on charge and snuggle into bed. The biggest grin on my face, falling asleep thinking of the day awaiting me.

Day came soon and the film department at school seemed to be full of excitement. Many people were grouping up to help with about 5 other lucky people's short films. Somehow it felt like I was really behind compared to others, but I had many things prepared for the next week.