Started: May 20th, 2019
Finished: August 12th, 2019
Important Note: He deleted before I could continue listening to the messages, his whereabouts are unknown as of now.
Who is he? Well, I, myself, recently became mutuals with this user but before I began talking with him I saw how many followers he had including the type of content he would post. In my opinion, it is a pretty big following. Now I don't know nor remember if I knew him before MeWe since he was also a Google Plus user but from what I've seen he seems pretty popular. As for his content? It was kind of unique.
Just like every user on his page, I gushed over his voice. He responded to that post with, well, his voice. We had a short conversation; I typed while he recorded and replied with that. Did I feel satisfied with just talking to him through the comments and probably never again cause of anxiety and fear of annoying people? No, I didn't. What I did was pretty reasonable. I private messaged him. This is where the interview took place. How? I was a curious kid of course. With a bit of rising anxiety and doubts that The Ghost Boi would respond back, I began typing.
brxkenbxi: What made you want to have this persona and do voice recordings?
Now, with this question, he indeed respond but in a way I thought he wouldn't though with how his account goes it wasn't as shocking. He responding with a voice recording. With that said, I will try my best to sum up his three(3) minute and 49 second answer.
the ghost boi: Before I joined MeWe I was already a streamer, I've already been doing this commenting thing. And then- when I got to MeWe it was . . different. I literally started off as a nobody. I had a few people from Google+, one person actually, that built up and I never really revealed my voice or my face. None of that really. And then I revealed my face first. Y'know nothing much. It just casually happened after a while and when I got there- when I got to a point where I started just playing the persona of a phantom or A Fading Phantom, my second account of Google+. Before that, I was a pretty popular page on Google+ . . . . This entire thing was- wasn't really something I expected to start doing. It's just- I got a lot of people like- a lot of people were surprised about my voice and when I got to it I just went "Fuck it, let's try it. Let's see how it goes." and so far it was starting to grow a little bit. So, you know, I still get surprised how people react to my voice. I don't see a big deal about it but y'know whatever, it's fine. I don't- I don't let it get to my head too much but I do this stuff to entertain people. Y'know to give people a laugh or whatever and do whatever I have to do, do whatever I feel like is right. And I'm starting to enjoy it myself but am I getting the ego "I have the best voice ever!"? No, there are definitely a lot of better voices than me on this goddamn website and I got to meet a few of them. But when I do- y'know, I appreciate the support people give me on my voice overs and streaming channel, all that stuff. My streaming channel, y'know, I always talk with this voice quite different. What I'm doing is I'm separating two audiences. One audience from MeWe, which I feel is more tamed and more manageable and my stream channel, just no filters. We're just fuckin' saying the worst or whatever cause, y'know, fuck it we wanna feel unfiltered so, that's how it is. But when I am in my other(MeWe) channel, I gotta calm down, ease up and it just- it just become soothing. Not saying that my streaming channel isn't soothing either, it's therapy, it's a place where I can vent and I can let my charismatic side out and go wild on the stuff I wanna do. The MeWe channel is calming, therapeutic, not just for me but for other people. I've gotten positive reception, negative reception, I've gotten many receptions for both things. Some of them, let's just say, I've ended up in a relationship. this voice stuff gotten me in two relationships recently and, y'know, first one didn't work out, neither did the second one. They're not my first relationships but y'know- just, it kinda saddens me sometimes that people only like me for my voice but, y'know, I shouldn't be bothered by it cause as long as I'm entertaining people, as long as I'm making people happy, giving people something to listen to then it's alright with me.
In his answer, he revealed his name which is something I'm going to keep a secret. Following after that, I asked more questions.
brxkenbxi: Do you actually get joy out of this though? Despite the fact the positive feedback you receive, despite people liking your voice, do you truly enjoy it? How do you feel about the fact some only interact with you cause of your voice?
Now, I'm not going to explain how he responded. Yet again I will try my best to sum up his one(1) minute and 54 second answer.
the ghost boi: Do I get joy? I get joy in the moment . . but . . it does suck sometimes when people only wanna talk to me cause of my voice. It honestly shows what types of characters they are. Some do talk to me just for me, some I feel like are kiss-asses, some are kinda thirsty, some are just gay. When you realise that, when you know that, at first it depresses you and kinda breaks your heart cause you realise, y'know, if they can't like you as a person and have a regular interaction with you without saying "Oh, I love your voice!" or something, it gets kind of depressing. And, y'know, it- . . yeah . . that's just how I feel about it sometimes but in the grand scale of it all, I do get enjoyment of it because I'm doing something. I'm doing something to keep myself busy, I'm utilising something to, y'know, gain a fanbase or gain an audience because I wanna do stuff as a creator for videos and for media, all these types of things. Spread my audience base and go from different places , gain an audience and when I feel they're ready to combine into one big community then I'll do it but yeah. So then to sum it up, I do get joy in it in the moment and at the end of the day, either I'm happy or unhappy. That's all.
brxkenbxi: Shouldn't you be happy at the end of the day? It is your page, your voice. It seems really saddening for people to interact with you just cause of your voice, you know? Have people tried to get to know you outside of your persona? Outside of your creativity?
I will sum up his one(1) minute and 22 second answer.
the ghost boi: There's pros and cons. So, I enjoy the pros, y'know, and the cons . . I can deal with. So, in the end it's not- it's not a big deal. I appreciate those who look outside of the voice stuff and the other stuff that I do and appreciate me for me and genuinely are friends. It's just, again, when those who only talk to you BECAUSE of, y'know, the things you do(time stamp: 0:37)
After this, I then had the idea to write this piece. In my opinion, I find The Ghost Boi brave to do this. Doing a face reveal seems to be way easier than constantly speaking online but he indeed do this everyday. It's quite an interesting concept. As he stated before, it can be rewarding but to to be liked because of only your voice seems to be as deprecating as being liked for your looks. To know that people only interact with you solely because of a physical aspect you have no control over is really saddening. Though he did state that he looks past this but somehow, I couldn't. It's kind of gut wrenching to know that no one would want to know you as a person and instead gawk at your features as if you're a piece of art. Don't get me wrong, everyone is an art piece. Everyone is unique in their own way but we have personalities. Emotions. We're not just things to be gushed over.
I do applaud The Ghost Boi for his commitment on this persona of his. Getting to know him these past few days, outside of the interview, outside of his persona, is something I'd highly recommend. Gaining a new friend is something everyone may need in their life. As I'm writing this, I'm keeping in mind that he told me not to hype him up. He is a regular guy like we are regular people to others but he's unique in his way. He made his ideas into reality and gained popularity over them. Though he receives both positive and negative feedback, he keeps doing it even if he's happy about it during some part of the day and that is something to admire. Despite people only enjoying him for his voice, he continues. Kind of makes me want to continue writing stories, despite it not being popular on my old account and this current one.
So, who is The Ghost Boi really? Follow him on Mewe and YouTube to find out. Thank you for the read~
-brxkenbxi
